I'm still here, I think! :S I have some bleeding today, but it's a bit sporadic. I'm not sure what to make of it. My temperature was down a touch on yesterday's (which was down a touch on the day before's), but triphasic all the same.
Brown spotting has continued today as yesterday. THEN around 6pm or so, I went to run the boys a bath and stopped for a wee - found dark/mid-red blood :( I know that's not good. I remember a doctor at the hospital when I was bleeding heavily (bright red) with Nathan, saying that dark red bleeding was actually more indicative of miscarriage than bright red bleeding, so at the time that was an encouragement.
I have also had a backache low down for most of the day, just mild. It was getting worse by the time I noticed the bleeding, and shortly afterwards it got a LOT worse and I became quite crampy feeling at the front low down too. Not BAD cramps, though I've charted bad to differentiate from my usual mild ones (which I've also had today, as most days I think, on and off). Neil got home shortly after this discovery and took over the boys' bath and much of bedtime prep so I didn't need to physically exert myself much. I spent the next couple of hours quite crampy (constant, not waves or peaks), and with bothersome low back ache (more bothersome than the crampiness). However 5 hours later the cramping is gone(disappeared 2 or 3 hours ago) and the back ache is minimal and not bothersome or distracting. Checked my pad and there is only some dark red spotting, nothing more.
What is going on?! I was sure I was starting a miscarriage early this evening, although I DO still feel pregnant, in terms of queasiness, hormonal moodiness (fly-off-the-handle day today), and I don't have much taste for food still (especially sweet foods) but my stomach is scrunchy hungry today, before I get to a meal time - a good pregnancy sign for me. I feel a bit weepy over children's stories - a lamb being born on a farming DVD the boys were watching choked me right up this afternoon! Still exhausted and a little dizzy today. Really bothersome headache this evening, which started around the boys' bedtime like the one I had at 6DPO (the day before my "period" started, which made me think it was a pre-period headache). I feel tired and congested (blood, not sinuses!) in my head, and HOT this evening.
I am planning to temp for confirmation (as in, whether it has dropped) tomorrow, AND test with my last pregnancy test, to see if it's getting lighter. The next day, I'll be 5 weeks pregnant and if things seem to be going okay still, I need to book my pregnancy in with the GP. Today I felt very unsure about the pregnancy while I was bleeding and cramping, so I thought I would not go to the GP (even though I'm meant to go asap) to book just yet.
Despite all of the above, I am still going with "Yay! I'm pregnant!" until proven, PROVEN, otherwise! :) There are lots of hints with the bleeding and cramping, but that's not proof for me yet, because I always have some sort of bleeding at some point! I want to read back my diary entries for this stage of Benjamin's pregnancy, because I started bleeding red with him at 5w2d and cramped like crazy, and was SURE as sure that the pregnancy was over, and then it quickly faded to spotting and all was well. I am wondering if it could be a similar thing. I really don't see why I am having all this BLEEEEDING though, from pretty much implantation time onwards! :S It has been 13 days now. I hope Sausage will be okay...
I will update tomorrow! So tired now, and need to go to bed.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
4 weeks, 4 days! Yay! :D
Woohoo, I'm pregnant! I'm baaaack! I love this! :D So happy!
Thanks so much for all the sweet comments and congratulations! :)
I wanted to update as it feels like SUCH A LONG TIME since yesterday morning, when all of this started, lol! But it's so late, and Monday tomorrow and I should go to bed. I wanted to keep track of my symptoms and such though:
I am still spotting, but I think this is my lightest day so far - only a pantyliner needed today. The spotting is pretty dark brown, so I'm hopeful that it's fading off and will not come back again. With my previous pregnancy bleeds, the dark brown spotting stage always last aaaages for some reason. I'm guessing I had a pretty heavy bleed because of the amount of red bleeding, and the heaviness of the brown for so many days. I'm amazed actually that I'm still pregnant, but I do hope all is well in there. I think it seems optimistic given the strong positive test just yesterday and my temps still high? My temp dropped a touch today, but it's still up in the triphasic level (higher than all my temps before the bleeding started), so that's okay. I am going to continue temping for a while. I just have to know...
Today I am exhausted again, and dizzy like yesterday, but it's not too bad. I have pretty much no appetite, like the last few days, and I admit I'm not eating brilliantly. Nothing looks good. I do seem to want plain crisps a lot, and have eaten those twice today, and yesterday too. Today all I wanted for lunch was a bag of plain crisps with a whole load of cheddar cheese cut into little cubes and thrown in with the crisps! :)
Sweet foods are NOT tempting right now. I am still partaking in the cookies that remain from when I baked them a couple of days ago, but they are not thrilling my taste buds like they were on Friday! This morning I was nursing Samuel to sleep on my bed, and when I stood up off the bed, I suddenly could taste goats cheese and wanted some soooo badly! Never had that one before, lol! It happened again later in the day, but with a sweet food instead, which I can't even remember now (can't have been that much of a craving then!).
I am mildly crampy I think? A sort of hot discomfort in my pelvic area, a bit achy and heavy-feeling. Not like cramps but I can't think of another word to sum it up. Today I think I am juuuust starting to notice the need to wee more often. I definitely haven't had to before today. I need to drink more fluids! I do not want another kidney stone! :S
I just remembered that the night before the positive pregnancy test (16DPO) during the evening I had heartburn! I mentioned it to Neil, saying, "Wow, I haven't had heartburn for AGES!" Probably haven't had it since my last pregnancy, so now it all makes sense! ;) I still can't believe I didn't twig earlier, lol! It's the bloomin' bleeding that put me off!
I'm so sorry to everyone who missed crazy obsesso-woman this time around, hehe! I missed her too! I LOVE the surprise, but I did have a moment of, "Aww..." about the crazy fun of watching every tiny symptom like a hawk and obsessing at my blog, and oh the great great fun of testing and wondering about non-existant lines! I love that stuff, and I did miss it this time, but it doesn't matter - I'm pregnant, and that's the most wonderful part! :D
I was holding Samuel in my arms this afternoon, and Nathan was lying on the floor looking up at us. He suddenly smiled and said, "We didn't expect the two babies, did we Mummy?!" and I wondered what TWO babies he was on about! So I asked, and he said, "Baby Samuel... (not sure why he mentioned that part!)... and the girl baby." I said, "What girl baby, lovey?" and he said, "The girl baby in your tummy." :)
He also said that we should call him (bless his heart, all genders are still "him" according to Nathan, hehe!) "sausage"! I don't know where that came from, but I LOVE it! Matthew waited through alllll of Samuel's pregnancy wanting to call him "crispy" but Arthur had already chosen "cornflake", so we went with Cornflake for Samuel, before we know he was a Samuel! :) Matthew was so good about it, but he kept on mentioning his choice of name right to the end of my pregnancy, and even told a midwife that NEXT time the new baby would be "crispy" :) So I promised him that if God blessed me with another baby in my tummy, we could call it Crispy. As soon as he saw the pregnancy test yesterday, his first comment was, "This one's Crispy!!!" He was so happy and excited!
Matthew was playing with cars on the floor when Nathan said we should call "him" Sausage, and immediately clasped his hands to his chest and gasped, and said, "That's a GREAT name, Nathey! Let's call him Sausage!" He was just beaming, and I fell in love with him all over again because of how generous and kind and encouraging he is after his long wait. He still loves "crispy" but how lovely of him to give up that idea for Nathan's suggestion, because he likes that one too. I am just so proud of him for that! I talked to him about it, and asked if he was sure. He said "Yes! But it's not a girl, it's a boy, and he's Sausage!" :) Nathan hugged himself happily and immediately began to use Sausage's name in context: "Mummy, how big is Sausage right now?", "Mummy, when will Sausage come out of your tummy?", etc. So precious, and I LOVE the name for this tiny one! Arthur came downstairs at this moment, happy with the name and started using it right away to refer to the baby. We all love it, and it feels natural somehow when I talk to them to say, "Sausage is too small to see right now" instead of "the baby", which I was doing before.
When Neil came downstairs a couple of minutes later, Nathan was smiling so big when he proudly told him, "Daddy! We're going to call the baby Sausage! And he's DEFINITELY a girl." hehehe! Followed immediately by Matthew's, "No way, BOY!" So bizarre to have children old and enthusiastic enough to be arguing about the baby's gender, and fun to have a difference of opinion amongst them this time!
I told my mum. I can't help myself, lol! I spoke to her on the phone last night and had EVERY intention of not telling her for a while, but right at the end of the phone call, she suddenly said, "You don't have any NEWS, that I don't know??" in a certain tone! I was caught off guard and said, "Uhhm, ah, uh, well!... ummm, oh you've put me on the spot now!" hehe! So not good at keeping secrets! The main thing is, I CAN NOT lie to my mummy! So she said, "What news is it?" and I laughed and said, "Oh, you know.... uhhmmm...." Brilliant communicator, I am. She waited. I finally said that I didn't think I was having a period after all (she knew a couple of nights before that I was having an unsually heavy/long one), and she said, "Oh?" So I told her about the tiredness, and the high temp after feeling warm in the morning when I woke up, and talking to Neil about it, and finally getting a test out and finding a strong positive result. I told her I am still bleeding. She said, "What do you think's going on then?" and I said, "I think I am pregnant! And hopefully the bleeding is just my usual thing and it will go away and all will be fine." She seemed FINE about it - gasp! She didn't say or imply or muffle anything negative at all, I'm so happy! Maybe she felt it inside but for once kept it to herself? I don't know. But she was very supportive and sweet. She said, "I won't congratulate you yet, if that's okay... I think I will feel safer about doing that when the bleeding stops." And that's okay. She's a worrier. But then she said, "I won't count this one yet!" And I told her, "Well *I* will!" and laughed to keep it light-hearted. I said, "It's still a baby to me, even this early, and I am going to celebrate it with joy whether I miscarry or not!" She accepted that, but can't see it the same way herself apparently. Anyway, overall, a surprisingly lovely reaction from my mummy! :) Tonight she congratulated me properly when I told her my spotting is lighter :) She did not want to hear my due date yesterday, but she was happy to hear it tonight on the phone. She also said she told Daddy, and he is very happy, though he was stressed-out and under pressure over a meal going wrong in the kitchen when she told him last night, and apparently he used the "F" word :S She assures me that was entirely due to food-related pressure, and he's truly happy that I'm pregnant! ;)
Okay, I have a week to get through starting in not-too-many hours, and I need to put away my school prep stuff and go to bed. This week I have to find a time to see my GP and book in for my pregnancy - how I wish I could do it over the phone, lol! So difficult to haul all the little ones out, and the waiting rooms are getting much germier now too, ugh. We are all going to the doctor's surgery anyway on Wednesday afternoon for 3 of the boys to have vaccinations - oh yay! ;) Sadly not a time when the GP surgery is running, but oh well. I REALLY don't want to make any morning commitments because I want to keep mornings strictly for homeschool only. My GP only works mornings so I would have to see somebody else if I went in the afternoon.... lots to think about. I know I have to do it this week - they get "booked up" fast and you're supposed to go as soon as you test positive around here. Wednesday also marks 5 weeks, and that's the exact day that I started morning sickness last time around (earlier than my others at 5w6d). I have no real plan!!! Aaaargh! My mum wanted to know two things, pretty much straight away in our conversation this evening:
* Where are you going to put this one?
* How are you going to manage while you're pregnant?
So obviously I have no answers, because I don't know! The answer to #1 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide - either financially for a bigger home, or creatively for a space saving solution in our current tiny home. I already have an idea for fitting 5 little boys in the bigger bedroom (which currently holds 4 in two bunk-style beds) without adding any more furniture to it, but it's a bit... out there, lol!
The answer to #2 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide. Oh did I say that already?! ;) Well, He will! Energy, help, "a way", something. He will. I have no plan of my own to lean on, which is handy because I'm not supposed to lean on my own understanding, but to trust in the LORD with all my heart. I know He will lift me up and enable me, and I am going to watch and wait to see Him bless me and be glorified. Yes, I have my doubting moments. No, that doesn't make any difference. I wrote all my jumbled up thoughts in my latest blog entry at my main blog, which goes into more detail than I have time for here tonight. Anyway, I am trusting God. I have no idea how I will manage! But I know God is good, and I can trust Him! :)
MUST go to bed!!! Back soon though! :)
Thanks so much for all the sweet comments and congratulations! :)
I wanted to update as it feels like SUCH A LONG TIME since yesterday morning, when all of this started, lol! But it's so late, and Monday tomorrow and I should go to bed. I wanted to keep track of my symptoms and such though:
I am still spotting, but I think this is my lightest day so far - only a pantyliner needed today. The spotting is pretty dark brown, so I'm hopeful that it's fading off and will not come back again. With my previous pregnancy bleeds, the dark brown spotting stage always last aaaages for some reason. I'm guessing I had a pretty heavy bleed because of the amount of red bleeding, and the heaviness of the brown for so many days. I'm amazed actually that I'm still pregnant, but I do hope all is well in there. I think it seems optimistic given the strong positive test just yesterday and my temps still high? My temp dropped a touch today, but it's still up in the triphasic level (higher than all my temps before the bleeding started), so that's okay. I am going to continue temping for a while. I just have to know...
Today I am exhausted again, and dizzy like yesterday, but it's not too bad. I have pretty much no appetite, like the last few days, and I admit I'm not eating brilliantly. Nothing looks good. I do seem to want plain crisps a lot, and have eaten those twice today, and yesterday too. Today all I wanted for lunch was a bag of plain crisps with a whole load of cheddar cheese cut into little cubes and thrown in with the crisps! :)
Sweet foods are NOT tempting right now. I am still partaking in the cookies that remain from when I baked them a couple of days ago, but they are not thrilling my taste buds like they were on Friday! This morning I was nursing Samuel to sleep on my bed, and when I stood up off the bed, I suddenly could taste goats cheese and wanted some soooo badly! Never had that one before, lol! It happened again later in the day, but with a sweet food instead, which I can't even remember now (can't have been that much of a craving then!).
I am mildly crampy I think? A sort of hot discomfort in my pelvic area, a bit achy and heavy-feeling. Not like cramps but I can't think of another word to sum it up. Today I think I am juuuust starting to notice the need to wee more often. I definitely haven't had to before today. I need to drink more fluids! I do not want another kidney stone! :S
I just remembered that the night before the positive pregnancy test (16DPO) during the evening I had heartburn! I mentioned it to Neil, saying, "Wow, I haven't had heartburn for AGES!" Probably haven't had it since my last pregnancy, so now it all makes sense! ;) I still can't believe I didn't twig earlier, lol! It's the bloomin' bleeding that put me off!
I'm so sorry to everyone who missed crazy obsesso-woman this time around, hehe! I missed her too! I LOVE the surprise, but I did have a moment of, "Aww..." about the crazy fun of watching every tiny symptom like a hawk and obsessing at my blog, and oh the great great fun of testing and wondering about non-existant lines! I love that stuff, and I did miss it this time, but it doesn't matter - I'm pregnant, and that's the most wonderful part! :D
I was holding Samuel in my arms this afternoon, and Nathan was lying on the floor looking up at us. He suddenly smiled and said, "We didn't expect the two babies, did we Mummy?!" and I wondered what TWO babies he was on about! So I asked, and he said, "Baby Samuel... (not sure why he mentioned that part!)... and the girl baby." I said, "What girl baby, lovey?" and he said, "The girl baby in your tummy." :)
He also said that we should call him (bless his heart, all genders are still "him" according to Nathan, hehe!) "sausage"! I don't know where that came from, but I LOVE it! Matthew waited through alllll of Samuel's pregnancy wanting to call him "crispy" but Arthur had already chosen "cornflake", so we went with Cornflake for Samuel, before we know he was a Samuel! :) Matthew was so good about it, but he kept on mentioning his choice of name right to the end of my pregnancy, and even told a midwife that NEXT time the new baby would be "crispy" :) So I promised him that if God blessed me with another baby in my tummy, we could call it Crispy. As soon as he saw the pregnancy test yesterday, his first comment was, "This one's Crispy!!!" He was so happy and excited!
Matthew was playing with cars on the floor when Nathan said we should call "him" Sausage, and immediately clasped his hands to his chest and gasped, and said, "That's a GREAT name, Nathey! Let's call him Sausage!" He was just beaming, and I fell in love with him all over again because of how generous and kind and encouraging he is after his long wait. He still loves "crispy" but how lovely of him to give up that idea for Nathan's suggestion, because he likes that one too. I am just so proud of him for that! I talked to him about it, and asked if he was sure. He said "Yes! But it's not a girl, it's a boy, and he's Sausage!" :) Nathan hugged himself happily and immediately began to use Sausage's name in context: "Mummy, how big is Sausage right now?", "Mummy, when will Sausage come out of your tummy?", etc. So precious, and I LOVE the name for this tiny one! Arthur came downstairs at this moment, happy with the name and started using it right away to refer to the baby. We all love it, and it feels natural somehow when I talk to them to say, "Sausage is too small to see right now" instead of "the baby", which I was doing before.
When Neil came downstairs a couple of minutes later, Nathan was smiling so big when he proudly told him, "Daddy! We're going to call the baby Sausage! And he's DEFINITELY a girl." hehehe! Followed immediately by Matthew's, "No way, BOY!" So bizarre to have children old and enthusiastic enough to be arguing about the baby's gender, and fun to have a difference of opinion amongst them this time!
I told my mum. I can't help myself, lol! I spoke to her on the phone last night and had EVERY intention of not telling her for a while, but right at the end of the phone call, she suddenly said, "You don't have any NEWS, that I don't know??" in a certain tone! I was caught off guard and said, "Uhhm, ah, uh, well!... ummm, oh you've put me on the spot now!" hehe! So not good at keeping secrets! The main thing is, I CAN NOT lie to my mummy! So she said, "What news is it?" and I laughed and said, "Oh, you know.... uhhmmm...." Brilliant communicator, I am. She waited. I finally said that I didn't think I was having a period after all (she knew a couple of nights before that I was having an unsually heavy/long one), and she said, "Oh?" So I told her about the tiredness, and the high temp after feeling warm in the morning when I woke up, and talking to Neil about it, and finally getting a test out and finding a strong positive result. I told her I am still bleeding. She said, "What do you think's going on then?" and I said, "I think I am pregnant! And hopefully the bleeding is just my usual thing and it will go away and all will be fine." She seemed FINE about it - gasp! She didn't say or imply or muffle anything negative at all, I'm so happy! Maybe she felt it inside but for once kept it to herself? I don't know. But she was very supportive and sweet. She said, "I won't congratulate you yet, if that's okay... I think I will feel safer about doing that when the bleeding stops." And that's okay. She's a worrier. But then she said, "I won't count this one yet!" And I told her, "Well *I* will!" and laughed to keep it light-hearted. I said, "It's still a baby to me, even this early, and I am going to celebrate it with joy whether I miscarry or not!" She accepted that, but can't see it the same way herself apparently. Anyway, overall, a surprisingly lovely reaction from my mummy! :) Tonight she congratulated me properly when I told her my spotting is lighter :) She did not want to hear my due date yesterday, but she was happy to hear it tonight on the phone. She also said she told Daddy, and he is very happy, though he was stressed-out and under pressure over a meal going wrong in the kitchen when she told him last night, and apparently he used the "F" word :S She assures me that was entirely due to food-related pressure, and he's truly happy that I'm pregnant! ;)
Okay, I have a week to get through starting in not-too-many hours, and I need to put away my school prep stuff and go to bed. This week I have to find a time to see my GP and book in for my pregnancy - how I wish I could do it over the phone, lol! So difficult to haul all the little ones out, and the waiting rooms are getting much germier now too, ugh. We are all going to the doctor's surgery anyway on Wednesday afternoon for 3 of the boys to have vaccinations - oh yay! ;) Sadly not a time when the GP surgery is running, but oh well. I REALLY don't want to make any morning commitments because I want to keep mornings strictly for homeschool only. My GP only works mornings so I would have to see somebody else if I went in the afternoon.... lots to think about. I know I have to do it this week - they get "booked up" fast and you're supposed to go as soon as you test positive around here. Wednesday also marks 5 weeks, and that's the exact day that I started morning sickness last time around (earlier than my others at 5w6d). I have no real plan!!! Aaaargh! My mum wanted to know two things, pretty much straight away in our conversation this evening:
* Where are you going to put this one?
* How are you going to manage while you're pregnant?
So obviously I have no answers, because I don't know! The answer to #1 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide - either financially for a bigger home, or creatively for a space saving solution in our current tiny home. I already have an idea for fitting 5 little boys in the bigger bedroom (which currently holds 4 in two bunk-style beds) without adding any more furniture to it, but it's a bit... out there, lol!
The answer to #2 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide. Oh did I say that already?! ;) Well, He will! Energy, help, "a way", something. He will. I have no plan of my own to lean on, which is handy because I'm not supposed to lean on my own understanding, but to trust in the LORD with all my heart. I know He will lift me up and enable me, and I am going to watch and wait to see Him bless me and be glorified. Yes, I have my doubting moments. No, that doesn't make any difference. I wrote all my jumbled up thoughts in my latest blog entry at my main blog, which goes into more detail than I have time for here tonight. Anyway, I am trusting God. I have no idea how I will manage! But I know God is good, and I can trust Him! :)
MUST go to bed!!! Back soon though! :)
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Uhhmmm, seems I have some news! ;)
So I am on CD11 today. You know, after the 6 day luteal phase last cycle (same as the cycle before). I am having an unusual period. I'm STILL bleeding, although it has been more like dark brown spotting these last couple of days. I have had more days of heavier red bleeding than I ever do (usually my periods are pretty light), but without much cramping at all, thankfully.
This week is the 2nd week of full-on homeschooling, and I am TIRED. Tired enough by the end of the week to dwell on it a bit. I am just BONE bone bone tired, not sleep-deprived tired, just physically utterly knackered from like 10 inches deep under diaphragm. I felt like that in the 2 days before my period arrived as well, and told Neil about it at the time, saying that I thought my period would show up (or that I was in early pregnancy) because it was not the sleep-dep type of tiredness, but the hormonal type that I know and love so well, lol! Well, that's STILL how I feel. I figured it was the loooong period plus homeschooling, plus naughtily having late late nights every night this week. Of course it could easily be that.
Yesterday I noticed a spot next to my nose, and another on my forehead. That really caught my attention because I NEVER get hormonal spots (and these were they) unless I am getting a period or am pregnant. They clear up right after I start my period, like in the next 24 hours or so. This is an absolute dead cert for me. So I wondered why I had those spots.
I have not temped since getting my period because my temp dropped so incredibly low the day I got my period (7dpo) - I mean, it dropped a couple of degrees C! Look, here's my chart as it was when my period started 11 days ago:
and then I started bleeding heavily, so I knew not to bother temping until nearer to ovulation. But this morning when I woke, the first thing I thought as I lay on my back was that I felt warm. Post-ovulation warm - I have become pretty tuned to it over the years. Sometimes I'm wrong, but.... I can't put my finger on it exactly, or describe it to you - I just have a slightly burny feel deep inside my throat and head and chest, that makes me think my core temp is the type of high that I only get when I have ovulated. So immediately I grabbed my thermometer which was next to the bed, and temped. I got 36.84!!! VERY much a post-ovulatory temp, and a high one at that! I wondered, completely stumped, whether perhaps I was unwell in some way and that's why I had a slightly higher temp than my body should be exhibiting given that I had not ovulated yet. I thought that also might account for how WIPED I felt despite waking from a night's sleep and having been blessed with a lie-in this Saturday morning!
I went down to Neil and we talked about it. He said he had a dream that I had a proper temperature (fever) the other night. He also said that maybe I had better be thinking of girl names. I said, "WHAAAAT?!" and he said he had prayed that if I get pregnant again, that it would be twin girls! Not that he wants girls and no more boys, but just that... I don't know why! I said, "But, but... that isn't possible! I am still finishing my period, and there's NO denying it's a period." I told him about it, and agreed it didn't seem likely that I could be pregnant. How I wished I had a test in my drawer to just confirm it for me, so that I could get on without such a crazy notion in the back of my mind, lol!
The more I thought about it, the more I wondered - oh, you know what I'm like, hehe! Even in the face of NO WAY IS IT POSSIBLE, NOT EVER, NUH-UH! it's still something I wonder about if the thought strikes me, lol! So I got to thinking about the spots, and the tiredness.... and the fact earlier in the week there were two nights running where Neil and I ate late after the boys, and we had lasagne and garlic bread one night, and fish and rice and veg the other night. BOTH meals I LOVE and can always finish, but both nights I could not. I just felt too full way before I could finish the plateful, even though I was hungry before the meal. I commented at the time to Neil, who said maybe it's because I've lost weight (?! not sure of this logic!) or something - it has been really coming off me lately, without doing anything towards it. This happens after the 8 month mark PP, when I am still breastfeeding, and it doesn't make a difference whether I change my diet or do any exercise. I don't lose it before 6 months, and can't keep it ON after 8 months, lol! Anyway, I am now at the 9 stone mark, lighter than I was before I got pregnant with Samuel AND Benjamin!
I tried frantically to think if there were any other signs, or what signs I NORMALLY get in early pregnancy but hadn't experienced in the last week or two, just to try and get a better picture of it in my mind. I know I get cramping and gassiness and eventually little ligament pains as an absolute rule with my pregnancies, in the two weeks or so after ovulation. If I was counting from ovulation, I would be 17 days past ovulation today. Well past testing time! I could not remember any ligament pains, although last night in bed when I did my gentle abs exercises, my lower back was sharp and painful when I did gentle pelvic tilts, which I hadn't had all the other nights before that. I thought I must have hurt my back somehow, which is still possible maybe. I wore Samuel in my back to the park in the Ergo twice over the last week, but it's the easiest way to carry weight on the back that I've ever found, so I didn't think I had strained myself in any way, even so.
I felt dizzy most of this morning, just swingy, but I put that down to the extreme exhaustion I was feeling. I HAVE felt crampy on and off, but will have taken absolutely NO notice of it whatsoever, since I'm bleeding and apparently having a period. I HAVE been gassy, but um, that isn't necessarily unusual *blush* ;)
Suddenly I remembered the "weirdly soft skin" confirmation that I always get, and gasped out to Neil, "Is my skin soft?!!!" he put his hands to my cheeks and said with an excited tone, "Maybe!!"
As soon as Samuel had woken from his nap and the boys had finished lunch, I left Neil watching them and went to rummage through all my drawers in the hope (ohhhh the HOPE!) of finding a leftover pregnancy test. And I DID!!! And it was in date! In fact I think there were two in the box, but I didn't notice too well because of my excitement at finding one and grabbing it and running to the bathroom, lol! ;)
I heard Neil start to change a nappy in the living room for someone, and grabbed a glass from a night-time drink which I tipped out and peed in right away. I had already been for a wee that morning but I knew that I would know for sure one way or another even without first morning urine, if I was really at 17DPO. In my head it seemed daft, I could see I was obviously having my period, and everything was in the usual place for that to have happened (appropriate DPO for my period to have shown up, big temp drop to coincide, heavy-but-normal period since, etc), but I felt indescribably excited. I put that down to association! ;)
I peed in the glass, and I dipped the stick and put it on the side of the bath. As the pink swept across the window, IMMEDIATELY a pink line showed up before the pink sweep even got to the control line area. I knew I had to wait until the pink sweep faded, but already I knew I was looking at a positive pregnancy test, and the weird thing is, I did not feel that surprised! I just felt too too joyful and happy and excited to even be able to describe to you! :D I waited. The window cleared. The control line showed up pink. The test line remained almost as pink as the control line! A STRONG BFP!!!!
I said, "Um, Neil?!" and he called up, "Yeah?" and then repeated himself in a more concerned tone. I came downstairs where he was changing Samuel's nappy on the floor with all the boys sitting around listening to a story tape from my childhood collection. I held the stick out from the stairs and said, "Can you see this from there?!" He said, "Two lines?!!" and I said, "Yes! I can't believe it!" and just laughed. He looked kind of shocked, hehe, but couldn't stop smiling :) I asked him if we should show the boys, who were so engrossed in the story that they hadn't stopped to hear what we were talking about. So I called their attention and showed them the stick. They know what those are! ;) I asked Arthur and Matthew how many lines they could see. Arthur peered at it and said, "TWO!!!! YAAAAAAAY!!" They immediately knew there was a baby growing in my tummy and were so happy and excited! They were full of questions, asking how long the baby had been growing in there, and what his (it's all they know, lol!) name was going to be, and so on.
The first thing we did once we could stop them jumping and yelling, was to get everybody to sit down on the sofa or the floor, and I told them that this baby is so unexpected, and that makes it an extra special gift from God. I told them we are going to stop and pray immediately to say thank you to God for such a precious gift to us, and they closed their eyes and I prayed. My voice was shaking as I was praying, just thanking God, and asking for a healthy pregnancy - I just suddenly felt overcome with how surreal it felt and what a shock it was to suddenly realise out of NOWHERE that I am pregnant! I mean, this has never happened before! I am always right on the ball, watching my chart, keeping track minute-by-minute (you know I'm not kidding ladies, lol!) of every possible sign or symptom as I wait for the chance to test, usually way too early! It's really really strange to me to have arrived at 17DPO with NOT A CLUE that I might be pregnant all this while! I knew there was a high chance of conception, but not much chance at all of my luteal phase sustaining it.
AH! I've just realised that I had BAD cramps in my luteal phase, remember from a couple of entries back?!!! Aha, how vindicated I feel, lol! I ONLY get those during my luteal phase when pregnant, and I ended my last "cycle" saying that it was a first for me, to have had bad cramps and still got my period. Inside I wondered if I had conceived, started implantation and then got my period, and THAT was why I had bad cramps, but I did not want to say that because it looks like I ALWAYS get my period saying, "Oh I am sure I was pregnant but just got my period anyway!" and that must get annoying to keep hearing! ;)
Anyway, after the excitement, I kept the test in my hand - I just didn't want to put it down. I still haven't stopped shaking, or praising God, or smiling, and I just keep saying out loud, "I just can't BELIEVE it!" and laughing! :)
Here's the test!
I'm trying to merge my two cycles together (this one and the last one where I conceived) at Fertility Friend so that I can make them into one whole cycle. Once FF has let me do that I will be able to see my due date, but I suspect Nicola has been right on the money predicting a May 2012 baby! ;)
Okay, FF has merged my charts (I had to manually correct ovulation as it had disappeared in the merge!) and I have a due date of May 23rd 2012!!! That's a 17 month gap again between babies, how lovely! Or maybe just a bit less - Samuel will only turn 17 months old 2 days before my due date. I love the month of May to have a baby - a spring baby! I haven't had a spring baby before! :D Yay yay yay!
So I must be 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant today, with my "week change" day being a Wednesday :) I can't believe it, I can't believe it, I can't BELIEVE it! I'm so so so so happy and joyful and thankful, and oh I just can't believe it! SIX children! I'm so blessed. Thank you Lord! :)
[edited to add - just remembered, as always please do not mention my pregnancy on Facebook if you know me there! I don't want friends and family to know yet, and will announce it in due course! Thanks! :) ]
This week is the 2nd week of full-on homeschooling, and I am TIRED. Tired enough by the end of the week to dwell on it a bit. I am just BONE bone bone tired, not sleep-deprived tired, just physically utterly knackered from like 10 inches deep under diaphragm. I felt like that in the 2 days before my period arrived as well, and told Neil about it at the time, saying that I thought my period would show up (or that I was in early pregnancy) because it was not the sleep-dep type of tiredness, but the hormonal type that I know and love so well, lol! Well, that's STILL how I feel. I figured it was the loooong period plus homeschooling, plus naughtily having late late nights every night this week. Of course it could easily be that.
Yesterday I noticed a spot next to my nose, and another on my forehead. That really caught my attention because I NEVER get hormonal spots (and these were they) unless I am getting a period or am pregnant. They clear up right after I start my period, like in the next 24 hours or so. This is an absolute dead cert for me. So I wondered why I had those spots.
I have not temped since getting my period because my temp dropped so incredibly low the day I got my period (7dpo) - I mean, it dropped a couple of degrees C! Look, here's my chart as it was when my period started 11 days ago:
and then I started bleeding heavily, so I knew not to bother temping until nearer to ovulation. But this morning when I woke, the first thing I thought as I lay on my back was that I felt warm. Post-ovulation warm - I have become pretty tuned to it over the years. Sometimes I'm wrong, but.... I can't put my finger on it exactly, or describe it to you - I just have a slightly burny feel deep inside my throat and head and chest, that makes me think my core temp is the type of high that I only get when I have ovulated. So immediately I grabbed my thermometer which was next to the bed, and temped. I got 36.84!!! VERY much a post-ovulatory temp, and a high one at that! I wondered, completely stumped, whether perhaps I was unwell in some way and that's why I had a slightly higher temp than my body should be exhibiting given that I had not ovulated yet. I thought that also might account for how WIPED I felt despite waking from a night's sleep and having been blessed with a lie-in this Saturday morning!
I went down to Neil and we talked about it. He said he had a dream that I had a proper temperature (fever) the other night. He also said that maybe I had better be thinking of girl names. I said, "WHAAAAT?!" and he said he had prayed that if I get pregnant again, that it would be twin girls! Not that he wants girls and no more boys, but just that... I don't know why! I said, "But, but... that isn't possible! I am still finishing my period, and there's NO denying it's a period." I told him about it, and agreed it didn't seem likely that I could be pregnant. How I wished I had a test in my drawer to just confirm it for me, so that I could get on without such a crazy notion in the back of my mind, lol!
The more I thought about it, the more I wondered - oh, you know what I'm like, hehe! Even in the face of NO WAY IS IT POSSIBLE, NOT EVER, NUH-UH! it's still something I wonder about if the thought strikes me, lol! So I got to thinking about the spots, and the tiredness.... and the fact earlier in the week there were two nights running where Neil and I ate late after the boys, and we had lasagne and garlic bread one night, and fish and rice and veg the other night. BOTH meals I LOVE and can always finish, but both nights I could not. I just felt too full way before I could finish the plateful, even though I was hungry before the meal. I commented at the time to Neil, who said maybe it's because I've lost weight (?! not sure of this logic!) or something - it has been really coming off me lately, without doing anything towards it. This happens after the 8 month mark PP, when I am still breastfeeding, and it doesn't make a difference whether I change my diet or do any exercise. I don't lose it before 6 months, and can't keep it ON after 8 months, lol! Anyway, I am now at the 9 stone mark, lighter than I was before I got pregnant with Samuel AND Benjamin!
I tried frantically to think if there were any other signs, or what signs I NORMALLY get in early pregnancy but hadn't experienced in the last week or two, just to try and get a better picture of it in my mind. I know I get cramping and gassiness and eventually little ligament pains as an absolute rule with my pregnancies, in the two weeks or so after ovulation. If I was counting from ovulation, I would be 17 days past ovulation today. Well past testing time! I could not remember any ligament pains, although last night in bed when I did my gentle abs exercises, my lower back was sharp and painful when I did gentle pelvic tilts, which I hadn't had all the other nights before that. I thought I must have hurt my back somehow, which is still possible maybe. I wore Samuel in my back to the park in the Ergo twice over the last week, but it's the easiest way to carry weight on the back that I've ever found, so I didn't think I had strained myself in any way, even so.
I felt dizzy most of this morning, just swingy, but I put that down to the extreme exhaustion I was feeling. I HAVE felt crampy on and off, but will have taken absolutely NO notice of it whatsoever, since I'm bleeding and apparently having a period. I HAVE been gassy, but um, that isn't necessarily unusual *blush* ;)
Suddenly I remembered the "weirdly soft skin" confirmation that I always get, and gasped out to Neil, "Is my skin soft?!!!" he put his hands to my cheeks and said with an excited tone, "Maybe!!"
As soon as Samuel had woken from his nap and the boys had finished lunch, I left Neil watching them and went to rummage through all my drawers in the hope (ohhhh the HOPE!) of finding a leftover pregnancy test. And I DID!!! And it was in date! In fact I think there were two in the box, but I didn't notice too well because of my excitement at finding one and grabbing it and running to the bathroom, lol! ;)
I heard Neil start to change a nappy in the living room for someone, and grabbed a glass from a night-time drink which I tipped out and peed in right away. I had already been for a wee that morning but I knew that I would know for sure one way or another even without first morning urine, if I was really at 17DPO. In my head it seemed daft, I could see I was obviously having my period, and everything was in the usual place for that to have happened (appropriate DPO for my period to have shown up, big temp drop to coincide, heavy-but-normal period since, etc), but I felt indescribably excited. I put that down to association! ;)
I peed in the glass, and I dipped the stick and put it on the side of the bath. As the pink swept across the window, IMMEDIATELY a pink line showed up before the pink sweep even got to the control line area. I knew I had to wait until the pink sweep faded, but already I knew I was looking at a positive pregnancy test, and the weird thing is, I did not feel that surprised! I just felt too too joyful and happy and excited to even be able to describe to you! :D I waited. The window cleared. The control line showed up pink. The test line remained almost as pink as the control line! A STRONG BFP!!!!
I said, "Um, Neil?!" and he called up, "Yeah?" and then repeated himself in a more concerned tone. I came downstairs where he was changing Samuel's nappy on the floor with all the boys sitting around listening to a story tape from my childhood collection. I held the stick out from the stairs and said, "Can you see this from there?!" He said, "Two lines?!!" and I said, "Yes! I can't believe it!" and just laughed. He looked kind of shocked, hehe, but couldn't stop smiling :) I asked him if we should show the boys, who were so engrossed in the story that they hadn't stopped to hear what we were talking about. So I called their attention and showed them the stick. They know what those are! ;) I asked Arthur and Matthew how many lines they could see. Arthur peered at it and said, "TWO!!!! YAAAAAAAY!!" They immediately knew there was a baby growing in my tummy and were so happy and excited! They were full of questions, asking how long the baby had been growing in there, and what his (it's all they know, lol!) name was going to be, and so on.
The first thing we did once we could stop them jumping and yelling, was to get everybody to sit down on the sofa or the floor, and I told them that this baby is so unexpected, and that makes it an extra special gift from God. I told them we are going to stop and pray immediately to say thank you to God for such a precious gift to us, and they closed their eyes and I prayed. My voice was shaking as I was praying, just thanking God, and asking for a healthy pregnancy - I just suddenly felt overcome with how surreal it felt and what a shock it was to suddenly realise out of NOWHERE that I am pregnant! I mean, this has never happened before! I am always right on the ball, watching my chart, keeping track minute-by-minute (you know I'm not kidding ladies, lol!) of every possible sign or symptom as I wait for the chance to test, usually way too early! It's really really strange to me to have arrived at 17DPO with NOT A CLUE that I might be pregnant all this while! I knew there was a high chance of conception, but not much chance at all of my luteal phase sustaining it.
AH! I've just realised that I had BAD cramps in my luteal phase, remember from a couple of entries back?!!! Aha, how vindicated I feel, lol! I ONLY get those during my luteal phase when pregnant, and I ended my last "cycle" saying that it was a first for me, to have had bad cramps and still got my period. Inside I wondered if I had conceived, started implantation and then got my period, and THAT was why I had bad cramps, but I did not want to say that because it looks like I ALWAYS get my period saying, "Oh I am sure I was pregnant but just got my period anyway!" and that must get annoying to keep hearing! ;)
Anyway, after the excitement, I kept the test in my hand - I just didn't want to put it down. I still haven't stopped shaking, or praising God, or smiling, and I just keep saying out loud, "I just can't BELIEVE it!" and laughing! :)
Here's the test!
I'm trying to merge my two cycles together (this one and the last one where I conceived) at Fertility Friend so that I can make them into one whole cycle. Once FF has let me do that I will be able to see my due date, but I suspect Nicola has been right on the money predicting a May 2012 baby! ;)
Okay, FF has merged my charts (I had to manually correct ovulation as it had disappeared in the merge!) and I have a due date of May 23rd 2012!!! That's a 17 month gap again between babies, how lovely! Or maybe just a bit less - Samuel will only turn 17 months old 2 days before my due date. I love the month of May to have a baby - a spring baby! I haven't had a spring baby before! :D Yay yay yay!
So I must be 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant today, with my "week change" day being a Wednesday :) I can't believe it, I can't believe it, I can't BELIEVE it! I'm so so so so happy and joyful and thankful, and oh I just can't believe it! SIX children! I'm so blessed. Thank you Lord! :)
[edited to add - just remembered, as always please do not mention my pregnancy on Facebook if you know me there! I don't want friends and family to know yet, and will announce it in due course! Thanks! :) ]
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Short luteal phase!
This morning my temperature dropped like a STONE, so I knew I would definitely be getting my period! I felt soooo nauseous last night, ugh, and dizzy/headachy. This morning when I woke up I started to feel nauseous literally the moment I opened my eyes, and then when I temped I was quite nervous about the day ahead, mid-way through the first full week of properly homeschooling this term! :S
I have continued to feel dizzy and kind of delicate through the day, and because I knew my period would show up, I determined to take the day by the horns and try to get all the important stuff done as early as possible so as to have breathing room if I felt hideous later in the day. So proud of myself because everyone was dressed and fed by 8am, and we had finished all of school by lunchtime! :) I had time to bake brownies with Matthew, and make dinner on time for the boys. They were dressed for bed with teeth cleaned when Neil arrived home from work, and STILL my period had not arrived.
By that time I was feeling queasy again, which quickly progressed to really yucky nausea once the boys were in bed, and I couldn't eat any dinner. I just feel exhausted, physically, to my absolute BONE today. So very different to any level of overtiredness, this hormonal tiredness. I couldn't remember if that was normal for me before a period, and since it was so extreme I wondered if there was still a chance it could be maaayyyybe pregnancy related?
Anyway, eventually this evening I took a left-over anti-sickness pill that I was prescribed when I had my kidney stone, and felt better enough for some cereal an hour or so later. Right after which, my period turned up! :) So, another cycle begins, and I'm quite surprised at the bad cramping I've had - that's the first time I've ever had bad cramps that went away again in my luteal phase, outside of being pregnant. It does lead me to wonder that I probably conceived, but I guess there's no point thinking about that. I'm also surprised that my luteal phase is STILL only 6 days long - same as last cycle.
Still, God's timing, God's timing... and I'm happy when I think of it like that! Perfectly happy! :) Thanks for the sweet comments last entry! So nice to have people cheering me on, hehe! I will be back in a few weeks! :)
I have continued to feel dizzy and kind of delicate through the day, and because I knew my period would show up, I determined to take the day by the horns and try to get all the important stuff done as early as possible so as to have breathing room if I felt hideous later in the day. So proud of myself because everyone was dressed and fed by 8am, and we had finished all of school by lunchtime! :) I had time to bake brownies with Matthew, and make dinner on time for the boys. They were dressed for bed with teeth cleaned when Neil arrived home from work, and STILL my period had not arrived.
By that time I was feeling queasy again, which quickly progressed to really yucky nausea once the boys were in bed, and I couldn't eat any dinner. I just feel exhausted, physically, to my absolute BONE today. So very different to any level of overtiredness, this hormonal tiredness. I couldn't remember if that was normal for me before a period, and since it was so extreme I wondered if there was still a chance it could be maaayyyybe pregnancy related?
Anyway, eventually this evening I took a left-over anti-sickness pill that I was prescribed when I had my kidney stone, and felt better enough for some cereal an hour or so later. Right after which, my period turned up! :) So, another cycle begins, and I'm quite surprised at the bad cramping I've had - that's the first time I've ever had bad cramps that went away again in my luteal phase, outside of being pregnant. It does lead me to wonder that I probably conceived, but I guess there's no point thinking about that. I'm also surprised that my luteal phase is STILL only 6 days long - same as last cycle.
Still, God's timing, God's timing... and I'm happy when I think of it like that! Perfectly happy! :) Thanks for the sweet comments last entry! So nice to have people cheering me on, hehe! I will be back in a few weeks! :)
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
6DPO
My temp did go up again this morning after yesterday's dip. I was dreaming that I was trying to figure out which thermometer to use to temp with, when Neil woke me this morning, haha! ;)
I have had about 30 mins of bad cramps for a burst this morning, and then again just after lunch time, but nothing else. Over the rest of that time, I had no cramping whatsoever.
However! It's evening now, and I am now feeling like I am going to get my period sometime soon. I feel very very tired, and mildly crampy (not the bad cramps that I had earlier in the day and yesterday - they were worse yesterday than today actually). Right around 6.30pm I SUDDENLY out of the blue became really irritable and impatient, and after about 10 minutes of being unnecessarily snappy with my children, I started to ask myself what on earth was going on! It does seem rather PMS-like to me. Then I came down from putting little ones to bed and started to read Arthur a story, and realised I was getting a headache. Within a few minutes I had to stop reading to go and take some painkillers, just because it was a weird sort of heavy headache that did not feel nice at all. It's still here anyway, which is something I remember from the 24 or so hours before a period starts sometimes. I can't remember if the pre-period headaches have a specific feel, or if this is it, but anyway. It's not an "it's been a long day" headache, so I think it's probably hormonal, and thus indicative of my period on its way. I feel pretty nauseous this evening as well - maybe headache-related? I don't know. And I felt a bit dizzy around the boys' bedtime.
Those are the only things of note! Oh and I did feel weepy over a couple of different story books for really little ones that I was reading to Nathan and Benjamin this afternoon. DEFINITELY hormones, that one! ;)
So if my temperature drops in the morning then maybe I will get my period the same day? I do know that my pre-period headaches tended to last quite a while - at least 8 hours and painkillers don't work whatsoever. I often wake up with them still there if they only just start before bed, which I do not relish with the day ahead of me! It's our first week of really knuckling down again with school ("back" to school, though we haven't really stopped over the summer, just did a bit here and a bit there depending on organisation and so on) and a dizzying, painful period would throw a spanner in the works a bit! Hopefully it will be perfectly manageable! I think my last period was, but then I was on strong painkillers around the clock for my kidney stone, so who knows! ;) If I do get my period tomorrow then my luteal phase will not have lengthened at all from last time, which is a bit unusual for me at this stage postpartum. By now, my luteal phase is usually lengthening by a day or two days every cycle - each cycle always has a luteal phase longer than the previous one, and at 8 months PP I am never still on a luteal phase as short as just 6 days... But timing isn't important - except for God's! :)
I will update tomorrow!
I have had about 30 mins of bad cramps for a burst this morning, and then again just after lunch time, but nothing else. Over the rest of that time, I had no cramping whatsoever.
However! It's evening now, and I am now feeling like I am going to get my period sometime soon. I feel very very tired, and mildly crampy (not the bad cramps that I had earlier in the day and yesterday - they were worse yesterday than today actually). Right around 6.30pm I SUDDENLY out of the blue became really irritable and impatient, and after about 10 minutes of being unnecessarily snappy with my children, I started to ask myself what on earth was going on! It does seem rather PMS-like to me. Then I came down from putting little ones to bed and started to read Arthur a story, and realised I was getting a headache. Within a few minutes I had to stop reading to go and take some painkillers, just because it was a weird sort of heavy headache that did not feel nice at all. It's still here anyway, which is something I remember from the 24 or so hours before a period starts sometimes. I can't remember if the pre-period headaches have a specific feel, or if this is it, but anyway. It's not an "it's been a long day" headache, so I think it's probably hormonal, and thus indicative of my period on its way. I feel pretty nauseous this evening as well - maybe headache-related? I don't know. And I felt a bit dizzy around the boys' bedtime.
Those are the only things of note! Oh and I did feel weepy over a couple of different story books for really little ones that I was reading to Nathan and Benjamin this afternoon. DEFINITELY hormones, that one! ;)
So if my temperature drops in the morning then maybe I will get my period the same day? I do know that my pre-period headaches tended to last quite a while - at least 8 hours and painkillers don't work whatsoever. I often wake up with them still there if they only just start before bed, which I do not relish with the day ahead of me! It's our first week of really knuckling down again with school ("back" to school, though we haven't really stopped over the summer, just did a bit here and a bit there depending on organisation and so on) and a dizzying, painful period would throw a spanner in the works a bit! Hopefully it will be perfectly manageable! I think my last period was, but then I was on strong painkillers around the clock for my kidney stone, so who knows! ;) If I do get my period tomorrow then my luteal phase will not have lengthened at all from last time, which is a bit unusual for me at this stage postpartum. By now, my luteal phase is usually lengthening by a day or two days every cycle - each cycle always has a luteal phase longer than the previous one, and at 8 months PP I am never still on a luteal phase as short as just 6 days... But timing isn't important - except for God's! :)
I will update tomorrow!
Monday, September 5, 2011
5DPO
Bonjour again, Blogger! :) So, me rambling about my luteal phase, far too late at night - familiar times?! ;)
Well, I'm 5DPO today. This morning my temp dipped quite a bit, and looking at last cycle the same exact thing happened at 5DPO, followed by a MUCH bigger dip the next day at 6DPO, and then my period the day after. My chart looks very much like last cycle's chart as far as temps go! I will wait and see about tomorrow's. I do sort of hope my LP will be longer this time - I like getting back to normal.
I am totally NOT looking out for pregnancy symptoms, because I am fully expecting a short luteal phase. I want to make note of some stuff about today though, for future reference. I had some mild crampiness this morning, sort of like I might in the run up to ovulating or getting my period maybe. At around 3 or 3.30pm, I started to feel much more crampy. It seemed to come on over maybe a 5 minute period, that's all. At the time I was in the kitchen getting snacks and I remember wondering if the distracting crampiness meant that I should chart mild cramps or bad cramps. I was VERY hesitant to call them bad cramps because historically I have only ever had bad cramps when I have been pregnant during my luteal phase, but that does include chemical pregnancies too. I don't want to go out there yelling, "BAD CRAMPS, WOOHOO!!!" every time I'm X-DPO and Neil and I have so much as looked at each other in the run-up to ovulation! ;) But, me and bad cramps in the luteal phase.... they have only happened so far due to pregnancy. So I was hesitant, and also not even sure they were bad enough.
I got the snacks and went into the living room. The crampiness continued just steady, and it wasn't that bad, just distracting. After they ate snacks, we set about building a massive Duplo house (to go with our Letter H activity today) with alllll the Duplo bricks the boys have. It took us over an hour, while Samuel was napping! So much fun! :) About half an hour into that time, I was in absolutely no doubt whatsoever that I was having BAD cramps. It felt like my period had started, and I was beginning to feel queasy with it too. The crampiness stayed exactly the same for the next few hours, until maybe 8pm-ish. During that time I was nauseous most of the time, but it was like when I have period cramps sometimes, I feel queasy with them. The cramps didn't come in waves, they just felt vice-like and hot. I also felt crampy through the small of my back on my right side.
After 8pm-ish I realised I had ZERO crampiness - after putting the boys to bed, I think... I can't remember exactly when it must have eased off, but it was gone! :) I also didn't feel yucky any more in my tummy, just hungry for dinner. I had been really bloated before so maybe it made me feel queasy? Sometimes that happens. Anyway, all evening I have had no cramps, not even if I think about it REALLY hard, lol! Until about 15 minutes ago (just after midnight - I know I'm naughty staying up so late!), when the bad (definitely bad) cramps started up again. I feel queasy with them again, but not too bad. I am just going to go to bed now, but I wanted to post about the cramps.
Nothing else of note though, I don't think... I have been kind of sensitive to noise again today, for whatever reason, but it has been okay. I have the odd spot that I only ever get with hormones (usually pre-period, but once or twice in early pregnancy - these are just plain HORMONES though, whichever way!). I will see what my temp is tomorrow. If it's down then I suppose I will get my period with a similar length luteal phase to last cycle, and set a new thing with bad cramps in the run-up to a period. I will update tomorrow! :)
Well, I'm 5DPO today. This morning my temp dipped quite a bit, and looking at last cycle the same exact thing happened at 5DPO, followed by a MUCH bigger dip the next day at 6DPO, and then my period the day after. My chart looks very much like last cycle's chart as far as temps go! I will wait and see about tomorrow's. I do sort of hope my LP will be longer this time - I like getting back to normal.
I am totally NOT looking out for pregnancy symptoms, because I am fully expecting a short luteal phase. I want to make note of some stuff about today though, for future reference. I had some mild crampiness this morning, sort of like I might in the run up to ovulating or getting my period maybe. At around 3 or 3.30pm, I started to feel much more crampy. It seemed to come on over maybe a 5 minute period, that's all. At the time I was in the kitchen getting snacks and I remember wondering if the distracting crampiness meant that I should chart mild cramps or bad cramps. I was VERY hesitant to call them bad cramps because historically I have only ever had bad cramps when I have been pregnant during my luteal phase, but that does include chemical pregnancies too. I don't want to go out there yelling, "BAD CRAMPS, WOOHOO!!!" every time I'm X-DPO and Neil and I have so much as looked at each other in the run-up to ovulation! ;) But, me and bad cramps in the luteal phase.... they have only happened so far due to pregnancy. So I was hesitant, and also not even sure they were bad enough.
I got the snacks and went into the living room. The crampiness continued just steady, and it wasn't that bad, just distracting. After they ate snacks, we set about building a massive Duplo house (to go with our Letter H activity today) with alllll the Duplo bricks the boys have. It took us over an hour, while Samuel was napping! So much fun! :) About half an hour into that time, I was in absolutely no doubt whatsoever that I was having BAD cramps. It felt like my period had started, and I was beginning to feel queasy with it too. The crampiness stayed exactly the same for the next few hours, until maybe 8pm-ish. During that time I was nauseous most of the time, but it was like when I have period cramps sometimes, I feel queasy with them. The cramps didn't come in waves, they just felt vice-like and hot. I also felt crampy through the small of my back on my right side.
After 8pm-ish I realised I had ZERO crampiness - after putting the boys to bed, I think... I can't remember exactly when it must have eased off, but it was gone! :) I also didn't feel yucky any more in my tummy, just hungry for dinner. I had been really bloated before so maybe it made me feel queasy? Sometimes that happens. Anyway, all evening I have had no cramps, not even if I think about it REALLY hard, lol! Until about 15 minutes ago (just after midnight - I know I'm naughty staying up so late!), when the bad (definitely bad) cramps started up again. I feel queasy with them again, but not too bad. I am just going to go to bed now, but I wanted to post about the cramps.
Nothing else of note though, I don't think... I have been kind of sensitive to noise again today, for whatever reason, but it has been okay. I have the odd spot that I only ever get with hormones (usually pre-period, but once or twice in early pregnancy - these are just plain HORMONES though, whichever way!). I will see what my temp is tomorrow. If it's down then I suppose I will get my period with a similar length luteal phase to last cycle, and set a new thing with bad cramps in the run-up to a period. I will update tomorrow! :)
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Quick 4DPO note...
Just to update and say that NOW I have ovulated! Of course FF has changed their completely wrong date to an appropriate one, and I'm now 4 days past ovulation. I didn't ovulate this cycle until Cycle Day FORTY!!! Yikers!
My last cycle had a luteal phase of 6 days, so I would maybe expect to improve that by a couple of days at best this cycle? I can't remember how quickly it lengthened after previous babies, and should just go and check my charts, but it's late and I must go to bed! We have a very good chance of conception this cycle (parsnips 2 days before ovulation), and I tend to presume that conception has occurred (as in, sperm meets egg) if there's a good chance, going by our history. The only thing is that it's unlikely that my body is ready to sustain it because of my short luteal phase, as usual when my cycles are returning to normal.
Right now my temps are climbing nicely. I am unusually tired and weepy over things like noise from the kiddies, but that doesn't mean much. Nothing else of note, and I am just waiting to see how long my luteal phase will be this time. I so HOPE it would be long enough to sustain what might have begun, but I know it's very unlikely! Ah well! It's good to have more time, and I know God's timing is perfect anyway!
That is all for now! Wow, a GENUINELY quick post (gasp!)! ;) I will be back soon though!
My last cycle had a luteal phase of 6 days, so I would maybe expect to improve that by a couple of days at best this cycle? I can't remember how quickly it lengthened after previous babies, and should just go and check my charts, but it's late and I must go to bed! We have a very good chance of conception this cycle (parsnips 2 days before ovulation), and I tend to presume that conception has occurred (as in, sperm meets egg) if there's a good chance, going by our history. The only thing is that it's unlikely that my body is ready to sustain it because of my short luteal phase, as usual when my cycles are returning to normal.
Right now my temps are climbing nicely. I am unusually tired and weepy over things like noise from the kiddies, but that doesn't mean much. Nothing else of note, and I am just waiting to see how long my luteal phase will be this time. I so HOPE it would be long enough to sustain what might have begun, but I know it's very unlikely! Ah well! It's good to have more time, and I know God's timing is perfect anyway!
That is all for now! Wow, a GENUINELY quick post (gasp!)! ;) I will be back soon though!
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