Woohoo, I'm pregnant! I'm baaaack! I love this! :D So happy!
Thanks so much for all the sweet comments and congratulations! :)
I wanted to update as it feels like SUCH A LONG TIME since yesterday morning, when all of this started, lol! But it's so late, and Monday tomorrow and I should go to bed. I wanted to keep track of my symptoms and such though:
I am still spotting, but I think this is my lightest day so far - only a pantyliner needed today. The spotting is pretty dark brown, so I'm hopeful that it's fading off and will not come back again. With my previous pregnancy bleeds, the dark brown spotting stage always last aaaages for some reason. I'm guessing I had a pretty heavy bleed because of the amount of red bleeding, and the heaviness of the brown for so many days. I'm amazed actually that I'm still pregnant, but I do hope all is well in there. I think it seems optimistic given the strong positive test just yesterday and my temps still high? My temp dropped a touch today, but it's still up in the triphasic level (higher than all my temps before the bleeding started), so that's okay. I am going to continue temping for a while. I just have to know...
Today I am exhausted again, and dizzy like yesterday, but it's not too bad. I have pretty much no appetite, like the last few days, and I admit I'm not eating brilliantly. Nothing looks good. I do seem to want plain crisps a lot, and have eaten those twice today, and yesterday too. Today all I wanted for lunch was a bag of plain crisps with a whole load of cheddar cheese cut into little cubes and thrown in with the crisps! :)
Sweet foods are NOT tempting right now. I am still partaking in the cookies that remain from when I baked them a couple of days ago, but they are not thrilling my taste buds like they were on Friday! This morning I was nursing Samuel to sleep on my bed, and when I stood up off the bed, I suddenly could taste goats cheese and wanted some soooo badly! Never had that one before, lol! It happened again later in the day, but with a sweet food instead, which I can't even remember now (can't have been that much of a craving then!).
I am mildly crampy I think? A sort of hot discomfort in my pelvic area, a bit achy and heavy-feeling. Not like cramps but I can't think of another word to sum it up. Today I think I am juuuust starting to notice the need to wee more often. I definitely haven't had to before today. I need to drink more fluids! I do not want another kidney stone! :S
I just remembered that the night before the positive pregnancy test (16DPO) during the evening I had heartburn! I mentioned it to Neil, saying, "Wow, I haven't had heartburn for AGES!" Probably haven't had it since my last pregnancy, so now it all makes sense! ;) I still can't believe I didn't twig earlier, lol! It's the bloomin' bleeding that put me off!
I'm so sorry to everyone who missed crazy obsesso-woman this time around, hehe! I missed her too! I LOVE the surprise, but I did have a moment of, "Aww..." about the crazy fun of watching every tiny symptom like a hawk and obsessing at my blog, and oh the great great fun of testing and wondering about non-existant lines! I love that stuff, and I did miss it this time, but it doesn't matter - I'm pregnant, and that's the most wonderful part! :D
I was holding Samuel in my arms this afternoon, and Nathan was lying on the floor looking up at us. He suddenly smiled and said, "We didn't expect the two babies, did we Mummy?!" and I wondered what TWO babies he was on about! So I asked, and he said, "Baby Samuel... (not sure why he mentioned that part!)... and the girl baby." I said, "What girl baby, lovey?" and he said, "The girl baby in your tummy." :)
He also said that we should call him (bless his heart, all genders are still "him" according to Nathan, hehe!) "sausage"! I don't know where that came from, but I LOVE it! Matthew waited through alllll of Samuel's pregnancy wanting to call him "crispy" but Arthur had already chosen "cornflake", so we went with Cornflake for Samuel, before we know he was a Samuel! :) Matthew was so good about it, but he kept on mentioning his choice of name right to the end of my pregnancy, and even told a midwife that NEXT time the new baby would be "crispy" :) So I promised him that if God blessed me with another baby in my tummy, we could call it Crispy. As soon as he saw the pregnancy test yesterday, his first comment was, "This one's Crispy!!!" He was so happy and excited!
Matthew was playing with cars on the floor when Nathan said we should call "him" Sausage, and immediately clasped his hands to his chest and gasped, and said, "That's a GREAT name, Nathey! Let's call him Sausage!" He was just beaming, and I fell in love with him all over again because of how generous and kind and encouraging he is after his long wait. He still loves "crispy" but how lovely of him to give up that idea for Nathan's suggestion, because he likes that one too. I am just so proud of him for that! I talked to him about it, and asked if he was sure. He said "Yes! But it's not a girl, it's a boy, and he's Sausage!" :) Nathan hugged himself happily and immediately began to use Sausage's name in context: "Mummy, how big is Sausage right now?", "Mummy, when will Sausage come out of your tummy?", etc. So precious, and I LOVE the name for this tiny one! Arthur came downstairs at this moment, happy with the name and started using it right away to refer to the baby. We all love it, and it feels natural somehow when I talk to them to say, "Sausage is too small to see right now" instead of "the baby", which I was doing before.
When Neil came downstairs a couple of minutes later, Nathan was smiling so big when he proudly told him, "Daddy! We're going to call the baby Sausage! And he's DEFINITELY a girl." hehehe! Followed immediately by Matthew's, "No way, BOY!" So bizarre to have children old and enthusiastic enough to be arguing about the baby's gender, and fun to have a difference of opinion amongst them this time!
I told my mum. I can't help myself, lol! I spoke to her on the phone last night and had EVERY intention of not telling her for a while, but right at the end of the phone call, she suddenly said, "You don't have any NEWS, that I don't know??" in a certain tone! I was caught off guard and said, "Uhhm, ah, uh, well!... ummm, oh you've put me on the spot now!" hehe! So not good at keeping secrets! The main thing is, I CAN NOT lie to my mummy! So she said, "What news is it?" and I laughed and said, "Oh, you know.... uhhmmm...." Brilliant communicator, I am. She waited. I finally said that I didn't think I was having a period after all (she knew a couple of nights before that I was having an unsually heavy/long one), and she said, "Oh?" So I told her about the tiredness, and the high temp after feeling warm in the morning when I woke up, and talking to Neil about it, and finally getting a test out and finding a strong positive result. I told her I am still bleeding. She said, "What do you think's going on then?" and I said, "I think I am pregnant! And hopefully the bleeding is just my usual thing and it will go away and all will be fine." She seemed FINE about it - gasp! She didn't say or imply or muffle anything negative at all, I'm so happy! Maybe she felt it inside but for once kept it to herself? I don't know. But she was very supportive and sweet. She said, "I won't congratulate you yet, if that's okay... I think I will feel safer about doing that when the bleeding stops." And that's okay. She's a worrier. But then she said, "I won't count this one yet!" And I told her, "Well *I* will!" and laughed to keep it light-hearted. I said, "It's still a baby to me, even this early, and I am going to celebrate it with joy whether I miscarry or not!" She accepted that, but can't see it the same way herself apparently. Anyway, overall, a surprisingly lovely reaction from my mummy! :) Tonight she congratulated me properly when I told her my spotting is lighter :) She did not want to hear my due date yesterday, but she was happy to hear it tonight on the phone. She also said she told Daddy, and he is very happy, though he was stressed-out and under pressure over a meal going wrong in the kitchen when she told him last night, and apparently he used the "F" word :S She assures me that was entirely due to food-related pressure, and he's truly happy that I'm pregnant! ;)
Okay, I have a week to get through starting in not-too-many hours, and I need to put away my school prep stuff and go to bed. This week I have to find a time to see my GP and book in for my pregnancy - how I wish I could do it over the phone, lol! So difficult to haul all the little ones out, and the waiting rooms are getting much germier now too, ugh. We are all going to the doctor's surgery anyway on Wednesday afternoon for 3 of the boys to have vaccinations - oh yay! ;) Sadly not a time when the GP surgery is running, but oh well. I REALLY don't want to make any morning commitments because I want to keep mornings strictly for homeschool only. My GP only works mornings so I would have to see somebody else if I went in the afternoon.... lots to think about. I know I have to do it this week - they get "booked up" fast and you're supposed to go as soon as you test positive around here. Wednesday also marks 5 weeks, and that's the exact day that I started morning sickness last time around (earlier than my others at 5w6d). I have no real plan!!! Aaaargh! My mum wanted to know two things, pretty much straight away in our conversation this evening:
* Where are you going to put this one?
* How are you going to manage while you're pregnant?
So obviously I have no answers, because I don't know! The answer to #1 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide - either financially for a bigger home, or creatively for a space saving solution in our current tiny home. I already have an idea for fitting 5 little boys in the bigger bedroom (which currently holds 4 in two bunk-style beds) without adding any more furniture to it, but it's a bit... out there, lol!
The answer to #2 is pretty much going to revolve around, God will provide. Oh did I say that already?! ;) Well, He will! Energy, help, "a way", something. He will. I have no plan of my own to lean on, which is handy because I'm not supposed to lean on my own understanding, but to trust in the LORD with all my heart. I know He will lift me up and enable me, and I am going to watch and wait to see Him bless me and be glorified. Yes, I have my doubting moments. No, that doesn't make any difference. I wrote all my jumbled up thoughts in my latest blog entry at my main blog, which goes into more detail than I have time for here tonight. Anyway, I am trusting God. I have no idea how I will manage! But I know God is good, and I can trust Him! :)
MUST go to bed!!! Back soon though! :)
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