I found the two tests I took at 8DPO and 9DPO and put them with the others to photograph. They really were negatives, although I do think there is a shadow of a line on the 9DPO one, like the ones I had the last couple of cycles. It's almost impossible to see in a photo though. Anyway, here's the photo - today's is at the top:
Today I am feeling really tired out again. We went to church this morning and if I stood to sing during the worship time then I quickly felt breathless and lightheaded, and had to sit down. Hmmm. That is going to become rather tricky with the amount of energy I need for everyday happenings with all the little ones and keeping any sort of tidiness going in the house! :S
I have no headache today, thankfully. I'm really hoping I don't get those too often this pregnancy. I am also not peeing frequently today for some reason. Just totally not. And yesterday wasn't so much either. Trying not to be overly paranoid about any small thing, and just focusing on the fact that I still feel pregnant and am getting darker tests! Smells are really noticable to me today though. Some are off-putting, but just smells in general - good or bad - are really standing out to me. Pregnant Nose! It was one of my early pregnancy symptoms at about this stage with my first pregnancy and I remember being very excited about it! :) I am pregnant-hungry though! When we got home from church I told Neil that for lunch I wanted lasagne, chicken pie and spaghetti, hehe! I really seem to want a lot of protein all the time. Today we just had a quick sandwich lunch because we got back late from church and the littlest boys needed naps STAT, so I had tuna and egg, which I NEVER have. But yum! :) Proootein... mmmm! Until I go off them (if I ever do), I can see myself needing egg every day at the moment. Just hard boiled to nibble on. Or cheese. We had roast chicken for dinner so there's cold chicken to nibble on tomorrow! :) Although, I'm supposed to make that into chicken pasta bake.... I have eaten three meals so far today and my mouth is WATERING writing all this, hehe!
I have a fridge full of ingredients for freezer cooking. Double batch of spaghetti bolognese sauce, double batch of lamb and bean hotpot, double batch of shepherd's pie, double batch of turkey casserole. The start of my freezer stocks for in case I feel too nauseous to prepare any meals in a few weeks' time! I need to get started on the cooking for all that tomorrow.
Well, I am as useless at Not Telling as I had suspected! ;) I told my parents tonight on the phone. I thought I would just see how the conversation went and if there was an "opening" then maybe I would mention it! And there was. Mummy and I were talking about clothes sizes, and about how I would probably get back down to a certain size eventually (one I have "stopped having children"). I said that it might not be for a while yet considering the next baby is due in December. She said, "What." (very short!) And I repeated my line. I confess I was enjoying myself just a little bit! ;) She was okay about it, it wasn't so bad. She said she supposed she should say congratulations then, and did. She also asked what Neil thought of it. She always thinks he's horrified at the discovery or something! She asked what he said when I told him. I told her that he gave me a big hug and that we're very happy. She warmed up a bit and said that she was happy for us then. *sigh* But it wasn't so bad. She got a bit flappy about the idea of twins and defensively told me all the reasons why I couldn't possibly conceive twins: (M: "It doesn't run in our family at ALL." Me: "Well, I did feel TWO ovulation pains..." M: (silence) Me: "Or identical twins - they don't run in families!" M: "But you felt two ovulation pains, so it CAN'T be identical twins!" etc!). She said let's not think about the possibility of twins at this stage. That way she would be able to sleep at night! :S
I asked to speak to Daddy and told him I was having a baby! :) He seemed slightly less enthusiastic than usual ("I expect you're both very happy!" rather than, "I'm very happy for you!") but generally very neutral and congratulatory, which was lovely. This morning at church a sweet lady who I know well was talking to me about homeschooling, and asking how I juggle the little ones with school time. We got onto talking about the new law which is likely to come into play any time from October, whereby homeschooling families in the UK will have to register and present their plan for the year ahead and be somewhat accountable to it. It makes me nervous! Especially if I end up with newborn twins along with my 6, 4, 2 and 1-year-olds a couple of months after the law comes into play! :S Anyway she asked how I felt about that law for us, and I said it was okay, except that it might get tricky from December since I was newly expecting another baby! :) It was FUN to tell!! :D She said, "Oh Alice, you're wonderful!" *sigh* I am finding that quite a few people think I am wonderful or some sort of supermama simply because I happen to have popped out more than the average number of children, and already have yet another on the way! I would like to tell them (as I did this lady) that I am NOT wonderful, or any more special than a mother of one or two children! I haven't done anything different as a mother, it's just that I have more children, and that really doesn't make me super or serve as an indication that I'm incredibly GOOD at mothering! So please don't be in any sort of awe. I struggle along with every other mother. I probably struggle MORE, rather than excelling more, than other mothers because of the number of children to juggle. STRUGGLE more! The number of children I am blessed with is not an indication of the Level of Motherhood that I have reached! (Oooh I've reached Level 5, lol!) ;) Maybe I should write about this at my main blog too? I just want to dispel the myth that seems to be out there a bit.
Anyway, so now we have told my parents and one sweet lady at church, who knows that nobody else knows and will keep it quiet. It was so nice to tell her because she said, "I MUST pray for you!" and we stood right where we were in the middle of people chatting away after church and she held my hands in hers and prayed over me and my new tiny. Which was wonderful! See, THIS is why I want to TELL THE WORRRRRLD!! :D Not wait. I would have told my brother by now, but they're with Sarah's family for Easter, so when they get back tomorrow I'll phone them. We do not plan on telling the boys till as late as possible - probably when I start to show and Arthur notices (he notices EVERYTHING these days, and wants answers to everything too!). Or maybe by the scan if it hasn't become noticable before then, because no doubt we'll go and someone will need to come and babysit, and they'll wonder why. Anyway, not for a while yet.
I have some pulling and bruisey-feeling twinges above my pubic bone here and there, and also a few inches up inside both hips and under my tummy button today. The higher up areas are mostly little ligament pains and pulling sensations, and the bruisey feelings are lower down. I know my little tiny one is finished implanting now - how exciting! :) Lots is going on, and I can't wait till a few more days down the line when I can look up NEW happenings and see that he/she/they (!) will be growing bigger. I have GOT to find an alternative to "he/she/they"! ;) When I'm not thinking of the whole prayer/twins aspect, I am pretty much completely expecting a baby boy to be growing in my womb. I think when we come to the scans, I will be least surprised if it's a boy, moderately surprised if it's twin girls, and completely flabbergasted if it's a singleton girl! I just can't imagine seeing one baby and looking for the bits at the big scan and NOT seeing an extra appendage, hehehe! I just will not be able to believe it. Seriously. So I think it's a boy! ;) I am not sure if we'll ever produce girls! Unless the thing about twin girls WAS from God. Which time will reveal, I guess! :)
Okay, must go to bed. Tomorrow is Monday, and my first ever change-of-week day! I will be 4 weeks pregnant tomorrow, and will have officially "missed" my period, even with my original length luteal phase! Yay!
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