5 weeks, 2 days

Well I wondered at 5 weeks exactly, and became SURE yesterday, and just for confirmation I'm extra sure today, that morning sickness has definitely started! It's not nice, but in a way I AM finding it nice because it's interesting! Interesting because it's different, and my pregnancies are always so exactly alike (well, to a point! With the morning sickness anyway!) that different is kind of fun! ;) This is definitely early for me to start morning sickness. I know it's only a week early, but for a girl who starts it at the exact same DAY every time, this is quite a change! I don't know that it means anything though. Already people are saying, "GIRL!!!" or "TWINS!!!", but I don't know.... I don't think it necessarily has to mean anything. Time will tell, I guess!

So far I am a little bit apprehensive that this is just Gear One of morning sickness, and that when I reach my usual start time for morning sickness at the weekend, Gear Two will kick in and I'll be sicker than ever before, or something! :S I reeeeeeally hope not, but I'm a bit nervous about it! Right now I am somewhere between very queasy and nauseous all day except for the first part of the morning. It starts between 10 and 11am and is then THERE, pretty much just sitting yuckily, but it does get somewhat worse as the day goes on like it always has before. The actual morning sickness feeling is the same as the other times - it's awfully familiar to me now. SO FAR, it is pretty mild as far as my morning sickness goes, though still horrible. I have only really had it for 2 or so days, and I think it could get worse so I don't want to say much more about it right now!

I am eating and drinking as best I can! Today it's going okay, and I even managed to make a roast chicken dinner and simultaneously make two shepherd's pies for the freezer - determined to fill it up, and I have the ingredients to use which were bought having no idea I would feel sick earlier than expected. Blech. Anyway, I felt grim but it went okay. I am eating okay though I don't want ANYTHING to eat at all, and I had to really force my aforementioned "delicious" tuna/egg/corn/cucumber/mayo sandwich down at lunch time. It made me feel really really gaggy and sick, and it was hard work to eat, so I don't think I will make that combo again until I am past the morning sickness. I feel gaggy easily, and actually do gag if I get a hair in my mouth, ugh. I try not to but it just happens anyway.

My biggest problem at this stage is usually fluids. All fluids are just horrid, and I can't take more than a tiny sip very very occasionally throughout the day or I feel dreadful for it and struggle to do anything with the boys even. I know that when it's at its worst, my best efforts only afford me about 250mls of fluids in a whole day :( Or 500mls on a good day. So I really hope that the pattern of my nausea stays the same - with a window of feeling okay in the morning, because then I can CRAM my fluids into that window, hopefully! :) This morning when I got up feeling fine, I had a drink of water, some cereal with milk on, and a glass of orange juice. After I started feeling sick, I haven't really had much to drink. Some more orange juice and a bit of water. 7UP went down okay, but only in small bits. Oh but I did have a rocket ice-lolly this evening! :) Bought a pack of 10 from Tesco, remembering that they really helped last time, and it really DID help! Until I finished, and then about 10 seconds later I felt just as yucky again. But that's fluids, so that's good!

Anyway. I will be VERY happy if this is the start of how it will be. If it stays this way, I will feel glad, because it's milder than I remember it. For that reason though, I'm suspicious that it will get worse as I get to the 6-week mark, when I normally start morning sickness. Ugh, I hope not! I feel sick enough already!

So what else?! Not much to report symptom-wise. Some soreness here and there in the breast department, but no problems with pain whilst breastfeeding at all yet, which is good! I'm getting an increasing "something's going on" feeling in the pit of my abdomen, which is hard to describe. I notice it especially when I lie on my side. It's like a fullness or pressure, but quite a subtle sensation. I feel like there's something "swollen" in there, which there absolutely IS! My womb! :)

My Tiny Pip's teeny tiny little heart started beating today!!!!! What a precious and wonderful milestone!! I am in awe that already there's a little heart beating away inside me! I can't wait to hear it. Last pregnancy was the earliest I heard any of my babies' heartbeats - Benjamin was just 8 weeks and 5 days when I heard his heartbeat on my doppler. I will probably start listening in around that kind of time this pregnancy. Only 3 and a bit weeks to go!!! :D

No bleeding yet. I know I shouldn't say "yet", but I can't help but wonder about it. It seems almost inevitable, but that is not a good mindset to have. I am praying that it WON'T happen this time, and I should be in faith about that, not thinking the opposite! I do check every time I go to the loo, but so far I haven't even had any spotting except incredibly light implantation spotting for a few days, which is on my chart.

Neil has told one of his sisters (not the one who is pregnant yet), and his brother. He tried to call his mum to tell her but she was on the phone and then our phone was tied up the rest of the evening with his phone calls to his brother and sister, so he hasn't had chance to tell her. I am beginning to be eager to spill the beans at Facebook so that the general world-at-large will know about the baby! I'm so excited and happy, and can't wait for everyone to know that this little tiny is HERE and to be celebrated! :) Neil's sisters are both on my Facebook so I can't say a thing there until all our family know (although it might not have been the wisest move to say I felt queasy yesterday! :S Didn't think first!). I still haven't told my grandparents and at the moment we are not planning on telling them for some time. They will be aghast and all worried for us and the boys. They were each an only child, and only had one child themselves (though they did want more, they just were unable to conceive after my daddy was born), and have just the two grandchildren, so this is just basically officially NUTS to them! ;) They don't think it's right, I think. So it will not be fun to tell them, and I want to put it off for a while.

Well as always I'm sure I've missed a load of stuff but I feel sick and it's getting late, and Benjamin is stirring for a feed so I will have to go. Back soon though! :)