Ahhh, thank you Jeannie, that makes sense! :) I Googled as well and found that you CAN ovulate twice in 24 hours (like Jeannie said, with fraternal twins - d'oh, of course!), but I just thought double ovulation would be ovulating two eggs at basically the exact same time. Apparently, not necessarily! But I'm still not sure because my temp had risen before the second round of ovulation pain, so that indicates a rise in progesterone, which would mean that my body wouldn't ovulate again after that had occurred. I think? Anyway.
My last period was definitely not implantation spotting though - it was heavier than usual and otherwise a normal period, and my temps have supported it (not that I've taken many of them this cycle), so I think everything points to a normal cycle with ovulation just having occurred. I still have a lot of pelvic discomfort today, but more just achy and draggy. Maybe it's something slightly embarrassing like constipation, and nothing to do with my reproductive system at all! ;)
Today my temp was the same as yesterday's temp, 36.4. I'm sort of waiting for it to go up a bit more, because while these are definitely post-ovulation temps, they are still on the low side, and I'm wondering what's to come. Flat temps are very often a pregnancy sign for me, according to my chart history! :) See, I'm symptom spotting at FORTY-EIGHT HOURS past ovulation. *sigh*
Okay, a couple of things I wanted to note from today - I had a smear test today. I just came due for one and they like it to be mid-cycle, so knowing I might be pregnant by the end of this cycle I hurried to make an appointment this week before it was too late! In the UK you're not allowed smear tests during pregnancy. If you're due one, you have to wait till after you've had the baby, and I did NOT want to wait another 10 months or so for a smear test once I'm due for one (since they only give them every THREE years in this country! I personally think that's rubbish, and women should be offered them at least annually!!).
Anyway. Smear test done. Watching for a little spotting from that, but none so far. I had some after my last one, so if I chart any, that's what it's from, okay? The nurse was somewhat agog that I'd had four babies (why is four so exceptionally unusual?!?! It isn't really, as far as I can see!), and even more so when she found out they were all boys and all under the age of 6. She asked about contraception and dropped her jaw again when I told her we don't use any. She asked if my cycles were regular (the routine questions) and I told her I am breastfeeding my 8-month-old, so I don't usually ovulate till around cycle day 20 and then I have a short luteal phase. This seemed like normal information to me, but she sat there frozen with her pen poised, just watching me in surprise and amusement! Apparently it's unusual for someone to know that much about her cycles! ;)
A few little "things" happened today that I wanted to note here, that made Neil and I exchange glances!
This morning I was sitting on the sofa with Matthew, and he was quiet for a moment, and then said, "Mummy? Who's in your tummy?" I confess my pulse quickened a bit! ;) Arthur has done this before, but Matthew has never said stuff like this to me, ever. I asked him what he meant, and he asked me again who was in my tummy, so I asked if he meant like a baby, and he said yes. Then he said, "Is someone in your tummy?" and his eyes were so intent and open, searching mine for an answer. I told him I didn't know right now.
When I went to the doctor's today, I strolled into the waiting area and sat down, to find that it was basically just me and a young mother with two infant car seats at her feet. The receptionist was clucking around her like crazy, lol! So I listened to their conversation and discovered that the babies were 3-week-old non-identical twin girls. I know that's totally random and silly, but I admit it ever so slightly gave me goosebumps! I don't think I've seen newborn twins before, ever, let alone girls, with this kind of timing and just right in front of my nose without anyone else there.
This evening as I was putting Benjamin to bed, I heard Arthur talking to Neil downstairs about how blessed and lucky Mummy is to have lots of babies. Neil said he found a baby name book that was hidden behind the sofa for about a year till yesterday when we moved the sofa (!!!) and that was the trigger for the conversation. Anyway I heard him tell Neil that maybe Mummy would have another baby soon, maybe in the spring (?!).
So, silly coincidences aplenty today that are giving me happy goosebumps! :) I know it's daft, but I just wanted to note them here anyway!
Hopefully my temp will still be at least as high as it is today in the morning, so that my chart will confirm ovulation and put me at 3DPO. Then I can let Crazy Obsesso-Woman out of the cupboard that I've locked her in, and have some fun! ;)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Hello again! :)
It's that time of the month again, hehe! ;)
Today I am at Cycle Day 20, and I think I have ovulated. I am on day 6 of EWCM, so I would be expecting to by around now. Some things of note, some of which I am confused about (!):
* Fertile signs VERY strong this cycle (CM, etc), more so than usual.
* Mucho increased parsnip drive, again more so than usual. Neil hurt his back at the weekend (or was it the end of last week?) and I thought we may not actually have any chance of pregnancy this cycle, but thankfully he recovered after a few days! I do love the CHANCE of pregnancy! We do not TRY for a baby per se, but I do love the fact that there's almost always a chance, given our parsnips! :)
* Much more noticable ovulation pain and discomfort leading up to ovulation this cycle too.
Here's the thing that is confusing me. Last night I was rather uncomfortable with what I had charted as "ovulation pain" that day and the day before, just aching and that certain type of dragging pain that I associate with ovulation. I usually don't feel it so clearly as that though. This past week I have been having some trouble falling asleep. My restless leg syndrome is bothering me and I am spending about an hour doing the highland fling around the bed before I can get comfortable enough to settle down. Or else I get to thinking about stuff and then I can't switch off my brain to go to sleep for a while. Anyway, I was still awake at 1am last night and over the course of about a 5-minute period began to feel really obvious ovulation pain, again much more clearly than I usually feel it. This was pinching and searing and bruisey all in one, and very pinpointed over my right ovary, and I knew I had just ovulated (just hours after parsnips, woohoo!! ;) ). It hung around till I finally fell asleep a while later.
In the morning, the pain had gone, though I still felt a little crampy, and my temp had gone up to 36.4 (from where it has been sitting at 35.9/36.0) - always a post-ovulation temperature for me, though on the low side of those, so far. BUT, EWCM in abundance again today, right through the day. I think it is definitely going away this evening though. Also, same parsnip drive today as in my "pre-ovulation" window, which is VERY VERY odd for me from the moment I ovulate onwards! I have had on and off achy ovary discomfort through the day, and then late this afternoon I had another very clear case of "ovulation pain" - the pinchy/searing/bruisey thing that I'm very familiar with when I ovulate.
So now, how can that be? That's very weird for me, and I am a bit confused by it. I do think I have ovulated, and I have never felt it so clearly as I did last night, so I'm sure I ovulated then. But I never have very fertile CM for a full day after ovulation along with the increased parsnip drive - those are both only signs of impending ovulation for me. I would start to second guess myself about having ovulated last night, but I'm SO sure of the feeling (which is confusing again since I was also so sure of the feeling this afternoon), and also my temp confirms it at 36.4 (I never have this temp unless I have ovulated, especially when it's a jump up from the previous temps like it is this time).
I don't know enough about it, but is it possible to ovulate twice within 24 hours? I always thought not, but I can't understand the ovulation pain I have experienced, and the intensity of the fertile "signs" this cycle. It's weird and I don't know what to make of it!
The only other things that are a little off the norm for me are hugely increased appetite today and yesterday, for no apparent reason, and also just feeling a bit hormonal and weepy today, which is odd at this stage!
In any case, one way or the other I feel pretty sure I have ovulated and I am now possibly 1 day past ovulation and waiting for my chart to confirm ovulation once I get to 3DPO, if my temps support that. I think the chance of conception is very very high this cycle, and am just praying that this time it will be a pregnancy that gets started properly and continues healthily!
I'll be updating here more often after the next day or so! :)
Today I am at Cycle Day 20, and I think I have ovulated. I am on day 6 of EWCM, so I would be expecting to by around now. Some things of note, some of which I am confused about (!):
* Fertile signs VERY strong this cycle (CM, etc), more so than usual.
* Mucho increased parsnip drive, again more so than usual. Neil hurt his back at the weekend (or was it the end of last week?) and I thought we may not actually have any chance of pregnancy this cycle, but thankfully he recovered after a few days! I do love the CHANCE of pregnancy! We do not TRY for a baby per se, but I do love the fact that there's almost always a chance, given our parsnips! :)
* Much more noticable ovulation pain and discomfort leading up to ovulation this cycle too.
Here's the thing that is confusing me. Last night I was rather uncomfortable with what I had charted as "ovulation pain" that day and the day before, just aching and that certain type of dragging pain that I associate with ovulation. I usually don't feel it so clearly as that though. This past week I have been having some trouble falling asleep. My restless leg syndrome is bothering me and I am spending about an hour doing the highland fling around the bed before I can get comfortable enough to settle down. Or else I get to thinking about stuff and then I can't switch off my brain to go to sleep for a while. Anyway, I was still awake at 1am last night and over the course of about a 5-minute period began to feel really obvious ovulation pain, again much more clearly than I usually feel it. This was pinching and searing and bruisey all in one, and very pinpointed over my right ovary, and I knew I had just ovulated (just hours after parsnips, woohoo!! ;) ). It hung around till I finally fell asleep a while later.
In the morning, the pain had gone, though I still felt a little crampy, and my temp had gone up to 36.4 (from where it has been sitting at 35.9/36.0) - always a post-ovulation temperature for me, though on the low side of those, so far. BUT, EWCM in abundance again today, right through the day. I think it is definitely going away this evening though. Also, same parsnip drive today as in my "pre-ovulation" window, which is VERY VERY odd for me from the moment I ovulate onwards! I have had on and off achy ovary discomfort through the day, and then late this afternoon I had another very clear case of "ovulation pain" - the pinchy/searing/bruisey thing that I'm very familiar with when I ovulate.
So now, how can that be? That's very weird for me, and I am a bit confused by it. I do think I have ovulated, and I have never felt it so clearly as I did last night, so I'm sure I ovulated then. But I never have very fertile CM for a full day after ovulation along with the increased parsnip drive - those are both only signs of impending ovulation for me. I would start to second guess myself about having ovulated last night, but I'm SO sure of the feeling (which is confusing again since I was also so sure of the feeling this afternoon), and also my temp confirms it at 36.4 (I never have this temp unless I have ovulated, especially when it's a jump up from the previous temps like it is this time).
I don't know enough about it, but is it possible to ovulate twice within 24 hours? I always thought not, but I can't understand the ovulation pain I have experienced, and the intensity of the fertile "signs" this cycle. It's weird and I don't know what to make of it!
The only other things that are a little off the norm for me are hugely increased appetite today and yesterday, for no apparent reason, and also just feeling a bit hormonal and weepy today, which is odd at this stage!
In any case, one way or the other I feel pretty sure I have ovulated and I am now possibly 1 day past ovulation and waiting for my chart to confirm ovulation once I get to 3DPO, if my temps support that. I think the chance of conception is very very high this cycle, and am just praying that this time it will be a pregnancy that gets started properly and continues healthily!
I'll be updating here more often after the next day or so! :)
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Trusting God with thankfulness! :)
Just to confirm what everybody already knows - that I did get another faint positive test this morning after another high temp (although another slight drop from yesterday's), and my period arrived an hour or two later. I didn't really feel like my period was coming and I wasn't really expecting to see it at that moment, so I felt a bit sad and deflated for a little while. There was the start of a tiny new person inside me, connected enough to me to make me well aware of his/her presence, and enough to turn that blank test a faint shade of pink, so that was the reason for my sadness, not so much that I just WANTED to be pregnant. It isn't that - though I LOVE it, and am eager to go through it again! - because I am happy trusting God for the right timing. I am glad that I did the same thing a few nights ago as I did last cycle, and lay in my bed with my hand low on my abdomen, saying hello and goodbye and I love you.
And now I am okay!
Today has not been at all bad. I haven't felt dreadful at all, only a little lightheaded really. My period is heavier than usual but not too bad. I still have weirdly soft skin and an increased appetite, but everything else I had noticed before is back to normal. I have been able to do all the normal stuff with the boys, which I'm thankful for! And I delight myself in them, and in the God who loved me enough to bless me with them. They are each delightful and delicious! :) I feel confident that God will open my womb again and his wisdom is perfect so I know the child he plans to add to our family has to be conceived at exactly the right time. Maybe it will be next cycle? Or maybe not for a while?
Statistically speaking, next cycle would be "the one" :) I think Nicola and Jemma said from the start (well, earlier than this anyway!) that they thought a December baby would be the next one for me. Well if I do conceive this cycle then a December baby it will be! Probably somewhere in the middle of December. I admit, December makes me nervous.... So close to Christmas when I am already frazzled with everything to be done, and never do manage to get everything done as it is. My lovely doula takes two months out of the year where she doesn't book any births - August and December. Those are "family" months for her, to spend with her children without having to be on-call for other families. She doesn't make exceptions, and it would be so sad not to be able to have her as my doula! Maybe God will bless us with twins due mid-December (if they're girls, I have their names READY! Well, without Neil's seal of approval, so NOT so ready after all maybe!), and I'll carry them to like 37 weeks and they'll be born in late November?!?! Okay, maybe I'm getting a LITTLE carried away here! ;)
But I'm fine, really. I feel happy and thankful, and glad to celebrate the days I had with that particular tiny person, AND I get to see him or her for real one day! I won't have to guess what he/she would have looked like or anything. I will really fold ALL my children into my arms one day. Eight (EIGHT!) born from a chemical pregnancy, and four born into my arms. Twelve children. What a joyous thought! :)
Thanks so so much for leaving comments, sending hugs, and praying for me this cycle! I mention it because I appreciate it so much, and it has meant a lot to me. I'll be back in a few weeks, I hope!
And now I am okay!
Today has not been at all bad. I haven't felt dreadful at all, only a little lightheaded really. My period is heavier than usual but not too bad. I still have weirdly soft skin and an increased appetite, but everything else I had noticed before is back to normal. I have been able to do all the normal stuff with the boys, which I'm thankful for! And I delight myself in them, and in the God who loved me enough to bless me with them. They are each delightful and delicious! :) I feel confident that God will open my womb again and his wisdom is perfect so I know the child he plans to add to our family has to be conceived at exactly the right time. Maybe it will be next cycle? Or maybe not for a while?
Statistically speaking, next cycle would be "the one" :) I think Nicola and Jemma said from the start (well, earlier than this anyway!) that they thought a December baby would be the next one for me. Well if I do conceive this cycle then a December baby it will be! Probably somewhere in the middle of December. I admit, December makes me nervous.... So close to Christmas when I am already frazzled with everything to be done, and never do manage to get everything done as it is. My lovely doula takes two months out of the year where she doesn't book any births - August and December. Those are "family" months for her, to spend with her children without having to be on-call for other families. She doesn't make exceptions, and it would be so sad not to be able to have her as my doula! Maybe God will bless us with twins due mid-December (if they're girls, I have their names READY! Well, without Neil's seal of approval, so NOT so ready after all maybe!), and I'll carry them to like 37 weeks and they'll be born in late November?!?! Okay, maybe I'm getting a LITTLE carried away here! ;)
But I'm fine, really. I feel happy and thankful, and glad to celebrate the days I had with that particular tiny person, AND I get to see him or her for real one day! I won't have to guess what he/she would have looked like or anything. I will really fold ALL my children into my arms one day. Eight (EIGHT!) born from a chemical pregnancy, and four born into my arms. Twelve children. What a joyous thought! :)
Thanks so so much for leaving comments, sending hugs, and praying for me this cycle! I mention it because I appreciate it so much, and it has meant a lot to me. I'll be back in a few weeks, I hope!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
More on 10DPO...
Second post today! I presume most people saw my earlier post and didn't comment because of the unsureness of things?
It's almost the boys' bedtime and I've just finished settling Benjamin to sleep. Now I need to go and get the other boys ready for bed (Neil isn't home till 7pm usually, and they go to bed around then, or shortly thereafter), but I wanted to write a quick update here because I'm so tired that I'm just going to go to bed pretty soon after they do, and I won't have time to update here this evening.
I feel now like I'm waiting for a period to show. I have been checking all day - nothing yet. I feel yucky and crampy in a somewhat different way, and feel very different mood-wise as well. Today has been really hard! I have had a horrible headache till 2pm which wouldn't go with painkillers, and the boys have been really trying. I was changing Benjamin upstairs after a record-breaking "I'm eating food!" poo, and Matthew crept up behind me from downstairs without me noticing and I nearly leapt out of my skin when I saw him a foot away from me! I seemed to really over-react (physically) and felt tearful over it, and JUST as I was recovering after I'd sent him back down again, Arthur did the same thing and shouted "BOO!!!" three inches from my ear without me having a clue he'd come upstairs! My nerves are frazzled to their last endings, and I almost cried! I also almost cried at least a dozen more times after that as they did their various things they do - not listening when I asked them to do something, making crazy loud noises at the tops of their voices and not stopping when I asked, bickering and arguing over toys, etc. I just had noooo emotional ANYTHING to deal with it, suddenly. Finally taking Benjamin to bed I stepped on a toy in the arch of my foot and it hurt soooo much. I guess my emotional reaction was enough that Arthur came over and gave me a hug and said, "It's alright Mummy, it's alright." *sigh*
Hormone City, suddenly. My constant gassiness has almost completely vanished as of mid-morning, and my headache cleared up for the most part mid-afternoon, though it is still hanging around and a bit sore now. I feel queasy, but maybe just queasy like my period is coming, if that makes sense? I don't have any confidence about it now, and I feel low emotionally anyway, so prone to be negative. PMS, I should say?
I'm sooooo tired out! The line is still there on my test, but it's so faint. I took some photos like yesterday but I won't have any chance to upload them because I'm just going to bed, and there probably isn't any point anyway, as I'm sure I'm waiting for an impending period now. I do feel a bit down about it, but oh well. I'll feel better tomorrow after some sleep and a little time put between now and then. GOD KNOWS BEST!! :) Good to remind myself! And I trust Him completely. I will still temp tomorrow to confirm what is going on, and I'm going to order some new pregnancy tests, because I have one left now. It will be great to say I have had a 10 day luteal phase! But I may not get that far if my period shows up before I get to bed this evening. Anyway, I will update tomorrow! Better go and sort the boys out now!
It's almost the boys' bedtime and I've just finished settling Benjamin to sleep. Now I need to go and get the other boys ready for bed (Neil isn't home till 7pm usually, and they go to bed around then, or shortly thereafter), but I wanted to write a quick update here because I'm so tired that I'm just going to go to bed pretty soon after they do, and I won't have time to update here this evening.
I feel now like I'm waiting for a period to show. I have been checking all day - nothing yet. I feel yucky and crampy in a somewhat different way, and feel very different mood-wise as well. Today has been really hard! I have had a horrible headache till 2pm which wouldn't go with painkillers, and the boys have been really trying. I was changing Benjamin upstairs after a record-breaking "I'm eating food!" poo, and Matthew crept up behind me from downstairs without me noticing and I nearly leapt out of my skin when I saw him a foot away from me! I seemed to really over-react (physically) and felt tearful over it, and JUST as I was recovering after I'd sent him back down again, Arthur did the same thing and shouted "BOO!!!" three inches from my ear without me having a clue he'd come upstairs! My nerves are frazzled to their last endings, and I almost cried! I also almost cried at least a dozen more times after that as they did their various things they do - not listening when I asked them to do something, making crazy loud noises at the tops of their voices and not stopping when I asked, bickering and arguing over toys, etc. I just had noooo emotional ANYTHING to deal with it, suddenly. Finally taking Benjamin to bed I stepped on a toy in the arch of my foot and it hurt soooo much. I guess my emotional reaction was enough that Arthur came over and gave me a hug and said, "It's alright Mummy, it's alright." *sigh*
Hormone City, suddenly. My constant gassiness has almost completely vanished as of mid-morning, and my headache cleared up for the most part mid-afternoon, though it is still hanging around and a bit sore now. I feel queasy, but maybe just queasy like my period is coming, if that makes sense? I don't have any confidence about it now, and I feel low emotionally anyway, so prone to be negative. PMS, I should say?
I'm sooooo tired out! The line is still there on my test, but it's so faint. I took some photos like yesterday but I won't have any chance to upload them because I'm just going to bed, and there probably isn't any point anyway, as I'm sure I'm waiting for an impending period now. I do feel a bit down about it, but oh well. I'll feel better tomorrow after some sleep and a little time put between now and then. GOD KNOWS BEST!! :) Good to remind myself! And I trust Him completely. I will still temp tomorrow to confirm what is going on, and I'm going to order some new pregnancy tests, because I have one left now. It will be great to say I have had a 10 day luteal phase! But I may not get that far if my period shows up before I get to bed this evening. Anyway, I will update tomorrow! Better go and sort the boys out now!
10DPO and calling it
Well, I've amazingly arrived at 10 days past ovulation! I want to update my chart but there's explanations to go with stuff so I wanted to do a quick post here so that nobody jumps to conclusions (good or bad!).
I tested this morning and I am going to call it and chart a positive pregnancy test! BUT, with caution, so not the usual "Wheeeeeeeee, I'm pregnant!!!!" thing! If this is a chemical pregnancy, it's the clearest positive I've ever had, but it's still so whisper faint that it makes me unconfident.
I also have a bit of a temp drop this morning, from 36.9 to 36.7. That's still a high temp for me (and possibly still high enough for a triphasic chart - I'll find that out in a minute when I enter my data on the chart for today), but because it has come down from even higher, it makes me wary, especially at this stage with my history. I also have a stonk-tastic headache this morning, and it was kicking my butt by the time I got in bed last night too. It wasn't there during the night-wakings with Benjamin, but it's really sore today. Sometimes I get bad headaches right before a period starts. I also feel hot and congested in my womb area, and while that could be a continuation of pregnancy symptoms, my lack of confidence as explained leads me to worry that it's because I'm going to get my period.
BUT, I'm excited (cautiously!) about the BFP! :) The faint line was visible around the 5 minute mark, it fills the whole "fatness" of where a positive result line should be, and it's too faint to really tell but I think it has a hint of pink colour to it. I can see it in any light, at most angles, and even in this room (just settled Benji to sleep for a nap) with the curtains drawn - so shaded light. I get worried that I've just trained my eyes to see NOTHING with my craziness over the last couple of days staring at negative test sticks, especially yesterday when I was fiddling with the photo to try to enhance what I was sure I could see! ;) I think when this one has dried I'll try to take another photo of all three together so that I can see if it really is a stronger line than the others. So far I can still see a shadowy line on the other two as well, so I'm not sure if it will look stronger today or not, especially on a photo. I definitely see a line, and they say that a line is a line, so.... I just hope I can photograph it so that you can see what I mean. It's sooo faint...
Anyway, with any sort of temp drop at 10DPO, I'm nervous that I'll just start bleeding anyway later, so I will not relax about it today probably. I hope I get to tomorrow so I can confirm one way or the other - lower temp, or stronger test.
I'm going to chart a positive test result now, and my lower temp. My skin is still weirdly soft. I just thought that might throw up a bit of confusion, and I also didn't want anyone jumping up and down thinking I had a good clear strong test result! I feel insecure about the result. I know I see a line, and I never really do get to that joyful point properly before my period shows with chemical pregnancies normally, but still. I just feel nervous about it. I love seeing a little line of evidence that somebody is in there producing a hormone to confirm their tiny presence!!! But attachment like that makes me even more nervous for it to all disappear.
I will update later as usual, because I may get my period yet today, or have other noteworthy symptoms to post. I'm calling it a BFP, but not "yay, I'm really actually PREGNANT!!" yet, if that makes sense! :)
I tested this morning and I am going to call it and chart a positive pregnancy test! BUT, with caution, so not the usual "Wheeeeeeeee, I'm pregnant!!!!" thing! If this is a chemical pregnancy, it's the clearest positive I've ever had, but it's still so whisper faint that it makes me unconfident.
I also have a bit of a temp drop this morning, from 36.9 to 36.7. That's still a high temp for me (and possibly still high enough for a triphasic chart - I'll find that out in a minute when I enter my data on the chart for today), but because it has come down from even higher, it makes me wary, especially at this stage with my history. I also have a stonk-tastic headache this morning, and it was kicking my butt by the time I got in bed last night too. It wasn't there during the night-wakings with Benjamin, but it's really sore today. Sometimes I get bad headaches right before a period starts. I also feel hot and congested in my womb area, and while that could be a continuation of pregnancy symptoms, my lack of confidence as explained leads me to worry that it's because I'm going to get my period.
BUT, I'm excited (cautiously!) about the BFP! :) The faint line was visible around the 5 minute mark, it fills the whole "fatness" of where a positive result line should be, and it's too faint to really tell but I think it has a hint of pink colour to it. I can see it in any light, at most angles, and even in this room (just settled Benji to sleep for a nap) with the curtains drawn - so shaded light. I get worried that I've just trained my eyes to see NOTHING with my craziness over the last couple of days staring at negative test sticks, especially yesterday when I was fiddling with the photo to try to enhance what I was sure I could see! ;) I think when this one has dried I'll try to take another photo of all three together so that I can see if it really is a stronger line than the others. So far I can still see a shadowy line on the other two as well, so I'm not sure if it will look stronger today or not, especially on a photo. I definitely see a line, and they say that a line is a line, so.... I just hope I can photograph it so that you can see what I mean. It's sooo faint...
Anyway, with any sort of temp drop at 10DPO, I'm nervous that I'll just start bleeding anyway later, so I will not relax about it today probably. I hope I get to tomorrow so I can confirm one way or the other - lower temp, or stronger test.
I'm going to chart a positive test result now, and my lower temp. My skin is still weirdly soft. I just thought that might throw up a bit of confusion, and I also didn't want anyone jumping up and down thinking I had a good clear strong test result! I feel insecure about the result. I know I see a line, and I never really do get to that joyful point properly before my period shows with chemical pregnancies normally, but still. I just feel nervous about it. I love seeing a little line of evidence that somebody is in there producing a hormone to confirm their tiny presence!!! But attachment like that makes me even more nervous for it to all disappear.
I will update later as usual, because I may get my period yet today, or have other noteworthy symptoms to post. I'm calling it a BFP, but not "yay, I'm really actually PREGNANT!!" yet, if that makes sense! :)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Crazy crazy obsesso-woman at 9DPO!
NINE days past ovulation!!!! And another highest temp yet this morning!!!! Also the same hot crampiness and twinges and stuff as yesterday, this morning. So Obsesso-Woman has officially donned her cape, whether I like it or not! ;) *sigh*
I was partially normal yesterday. Today I am one hundred percent (well, maybe ninety-nine) nutso. Trawling through chart galleries, photographing negative pregnancy test sticks, fiddling with the resulting photos, checking my underwear, etc, etc. A crazy woman. I'm embarrassed to admit it folks, but it's the truth.
So my temperature this morning was 36.9! For a moment as I was taking my temperature, I felt nervous to look at the thermometer because suddenly I wasn't sure if I "felt" pregnant any more, so perhaps it had all dropped away overnight? But there was the high temperature, to reassure me! I do hope this pregnancy (because it is one right now) can continue! I'm (daftly) getting attached to the idea of THIS particular baby bean. It IS daft, because it's quite likely it won't continue, with my last LP being only 7 days long, and a history of chemical pregnancies ending at 10 and 11 days past ovulation :(
Look what I found when looking through my charts - here's the cycle I'm on right now, up to today, 9DPO:
And here's a cycle that started on July 22nd 2005 - the cycle before Matthew was conceived:
Uncanny isn't it! They look SO similar in the luteal phase. It gave me a good reminder that even if it looks (and is) pregnant at 9 or 10DPO, it can still all fall away the very next day and become just a period, if my hormone levels aren't right yet to support a pregnancy beyond the start of implantation. I think my previous cycle only had a 6 day LP, so this cycle I'm on right now looks pretty much like it is poised to do the same as the above one. I somehow AM still so excited about the possibility of being pregnant, and at watching all the signs each day as another day unfolds with a high temp and no period, and another. But I am also trying to see the potential reality of the above. Ah well. I hope it won't be the same this time.
Also with my chemical pregnancies I struggle to get a decent positive test, even at 10 or 11DPO (the stage where I usually get a clear, if faint, positive with my healthy pregnancies). So that will be another clue if my temp is somehow still up tomorrow and I still test negative.
I took another test this morning and saw the same "shadow" that I saw the day before, within the 5 minutes. I compared it with yesterday's and they are both NEGATIVE tests, but I felt sure that in certain lights and angles (!) today's shadow was just a little more shadowy and full than yesterday's. It seemed to fill out the non-existent line more (ha!) to me than yesterday's not-there line ;) Later when it was dry I compared the two again (since yesterday's is dry too, obviously) and still felt like the line that's not there is a little stronger than the line that's not there from yesterday's test. When Neil got home tonight (he worked late and didn't get in till 10pm, poor guy! And arrived to find his wife squinting at two small sticks under the light, haha! At least he had dinner waiting - it wasn't all bad! ;) ) he held them to the light at all angles and said he saw what I saw but it seemed a bit far-fetched! While he was out I had gone crazy with hue and saturation and whatnot on a photo that I took of the two tests together (which, to remind you, are BOTH negative!), just to see if I could get technology to prove that my eyes aren't seeing things (which they probably are, but anyway).
So here's the photo I took. It's dark and grainy and grey, because those things made it easiest to see what I felt sure I could see. The top test stick is today's (9DPO) and the bottom one is yesterday's (8DPO). I drew an arrow to show you where the shadow of a line is, since you'll have no clue without it - the test being NEGATIVE! *sigh* I told you I am a crazy woman today!
I do not think that shadow is an evaporation line because there isn't one on the bottom test, and it fills the line (which I could see better in late afternoon daylight coming in from the north, hahahaha! ;) ) rather than just being a weird stripe on it or something.
Anyway. There is my evidence of nuttiness today. I have no shame! ;)
So today I am tired and a little headachy perhaps, but nothing I've been able to call an actual headache as such. I am not feeling too moody or irritable today, but I went to show something to Neil online - a photo of a baby who had been malnourished and is now chubby and healthy, praise God! - and I was mid-word when my throat closed right up in a sob and made it sound like I was choking trying to talk round it! The story was moving but I hadn't felt emotional at ALL, it just hit me in an instant, and that for me is usually hormonal. I've felt a little bit weepy today in general, and usually by surprise.
I had the usual bad cramps/mild cramps on and off this morning, and they sort of faded out by late morning. I haven't really been bothered by bad cramps at all since then, and the mild cramps have been on and off. I have had backache still, quite uncomfortable on my left side this evening whilst sitting on the sofa. I have had the odd sudden twinge inside my hip, very much like a ligament pain (pregnancy ones) but like a teeny tiny version. The same little electric flash/pull sensation though.
I keep thinking that with the cramps being bad for several days running, that is typical (for me at least) of implantation as the tiny one burrows in and sets up camp, so to speak! Then when the cramps fade off (which they always do eventually, after a bit) I wonder if that means implantation is complete? I don't really know enough about implantation to know how long it takes to complete. If it's complete, doesn't that mean it's established, and that a short luteal phase can no longer interfere? I don't know about that though, because I have charted the bad cramps on previous chemical pregnancy cycles, and they've often faded off too before my period shows. Not always. Sometimes they're still going when my temperature drops and my period shows up.
I'm very thirsty again today, and a new thing is that I definitely have an increased appetite today. I came over painfully hungry at 11am today after a really good breakfast only a few hours before. That kind of breakfast always lasts me till 1pm or just before, so I thought that was odd at the time. I ate a good lunch at normal time and was very hungry again at 5pm. I was making the dinner a little while later when I became really shaky and lightheaded with hunger and had to eat some cheese. It's 11.30pm now (tsk! Should have been in bed ages ago! Been so tired today!) and I am going to have to eat before I can go to bed as I feel hungry enough to eat a main meal again!
I'm still really annoyingly gassy and bloated, more so than ever it seems, each day. My skin is still weirdly soft, but there was a moment late afternoon when I touched my face randomly and got worried that it wasn't feeling as soft any more. Usually when that happens it's some sort of good indicator, because I then get my temperature drop and my period the next day. But it's soft again this evening :)
No particularly bothersome queasiness today, and it wasn't sore to breastfeed either. I have some mild stabbing pains in my breasts, but nothing else. I am having a crampy moment and some odd pressure very low down right now, but that's something I have noticed over the last few days. It's very on and off, which again is typical for me in a pregnant luteal phase.
Soooo the thing is, will it carry on? I guess I will go to bed (after eating!) and see what my temp is in the morning. That should tell me, one way or the other, never mind a pregnancy test. I will be disappointed if it drops! But if it does, it does. I'll update asap again tomorrow. Thanks for hanging in there with this crazy woman! ;)
I was partially normal yesterday. Today I am one hundred percent (well, maybe ninety-nine) nutso. Trawling through chart galleries, photographing negative pregnancy test sticks, fiddling with the resulting photos, checking my underwear, etc, etc. A crazy woman. I'm embarrassed to admit it folks, but it's the truth.
So my temperature this morning was 36.9! For a moment as I was taking my temperature, I felt nervous to look at the thermometer because suddenly I wasn't sure if I "felt" pregnant any more, so perhaps it had all dropped away overnight? But there was the high temperature, to reassure me! I do hope this pregnancy (because it is one right now) can continue! I'm (daftly) getting attached to the idea of THIS particular baby bean. It IS daft, because it's quite likely it won't continue, with my last LP being only 7 days long, and a history of chemical pregnancies ending at 10 and 11 days past ovulation :(
Look what I found when looking through my charts - here's the cycle I'm on right now, up to today, 9DPO:
And here's a cycle that started on July 22nd 2005 - the cycle before Matthew was conceived:
Uncanny isn't it! They look SO similar in the luteal phase. It gave me a good reminder that even if it looks (and is) pregnant at 9 or 10DPO, it can still all fall away the very next day and become just a period, if my hormone levels aren't right yet to support a pregnancy beyond the start of implantation. I think my previous cycle only had a 6 day LP, so this cycle I'm on right now looks pretty much like it is poised to do the same as the above one. I somehow AM still so excited about the possibility of being pregnant, and at watching all the signs each day as another day unfolds with a high temp and no period, and another. But I am also trying to see the potential reality of the above. Ah well. I hope it won't be the same this time.
Also with my chemical pregnancies I struggle to get a decent positive test, even at 10 or 11DPO (the stage where I usually get a clear, if faint, positive with my healthy pregnancies). So that will be another clue if my temp is somehow still up tomorrow and I still test negative.
I took another test this morning and saw the same "shadow" that I saw the day before, within the 5 minutes. I compared it with yesterday's and they are both NEGATIVE tests, but I felt sure that in certain lights and angles (!) today's shadow was just a little more shadowy and full than yesterday's. It seemed to fill out the non-existent line more (ha!) to me than yesterday's not-there line ;) Later when it was dry I compared the two again (since yesterday's is dry too, obviously) and still felt like the line that's not there is a little stronger than the line that's not there from yesterday's test. When Neil got home tonight (he worked late and didn't get in till 10pm, poor guy! And arrived to find his wife squinting at two small sticks under the light, haha! At least he had dinner waiting - it wasn't all bad! ;) ) he held them to the light at all angles and said he saw what I saw but it seemed a bit far-fetched! While he was out I had gone crazy with hue and saturation and whatnot on a photo that I took of the two tests together (which, to remind you, are BOTH negative!), just to see if I could get technology to prove that my eyes aren't seeing things (which they probably are, but anyway).
So here's the photo I took. It's dark and grainy and grey, because those things made it easiest to see what I felt sure I could see. The top test stick is today's (9DPO) and the bottom one is yesterday's (8DPO). I drew an arrow to show you where the shadow of a line is, since you'll have no clue without it - the test being NEGATIVE! *sigh* I told you I am a crazy woman today!
I do not think that shadow is an evaporation line because there isn't one on the bottom test, and it fills the line (which I could see better in late afternoon daylight coming in from the north, hahahaha! ;) ) rather than just being a weird stripe on it or something.
Anyway. There is my evidence of nuttiness today. I have no shame! ;)
So today I am tired and a little headachy perhaps, but nothing I've been able to call an actual headache as such. I am not feeling too moody or irritable today, but I went to show something to Neil online - a photo of a baby who had been malnourished and is now chubby and healthy, praise God! - and I was mid-word when my throat closed right up in a sob and made it sound like I was choking trying to talk round it! The story was moving but I hadn't felt emotional at ALL, it just hit me in an instant, and that for me is usually hormonal. I've felt a little bit weepy today in general, and usually by surprise.
I had the usual bad cramps/mild cramps on and off this morning, and they sort of faded out by late morning. I haven't really been bothered by bad cramps at all since then, and the mild cramps have been on and off. I have had backache still, quite uncomfortable on my left side this evening whilst sitting on the sofa. I have had the odd sudden twinge inside my hip, very much like a ligament pain (pregnancy ones) but like a teeny tiny version. The same little electric flash/pull sensation though.
I keep thinking that with the cramps being bad for several days running, that is typical (for me at least) of implantation as the tiny one burrows in and sets up camp, so to speak! Then when the cramps fade off (which they always do eventually, after a bit) I wonder if that means implantation is complete? I don't really know enough about implantation to know how long it takes to complete. If it's complete, doesn't that mean it's established, and that a short luteal phase can no longer interfere? I don't know about that though, because I have charted the bad cramps on previous chemical pregnancy cycles, and they've often faded off too before my period shows. Not always. Sometimes they're still going when my temperature drops and my period shows up.
I'm very thirsty again today, and a new thing is that I definitely have an increased appetite today. I came over painfully hungry at 11am today after a really good breakfast only a few hours before. That kind of breakfast always lasts me till 1pm or just before, so I thought that was odd at the time. I ate a good lunch at normal time and was very hungry again at 5pm. I was making the dinner a little while later when I became really shaky and lightheaded with hunger and had to eat some cheese. It's 11.30pm now (tsk! Should have been in bed ages ago! Been so tired today!) and I am going to have to eat before I can go to bed as I feel hungry enough to eat a main meal again!
I'm still really annoyingly gassy and bloated, more so than ever it seems, each day. My skin is still weirdly soft, but there was a moment late afternoon when I touched my face randomly and got worried that it wasn't feeling as soft any more. Usually when that happens it's some sort of good indicator, because I then get my temperature drop and my period the next day. But it's soft again this evening :)
No particularly bothersome queasiness today, and it wasn't sore to breastfeed either. I have some mild stabbing pains in my breasts, but nothing else. I am having a crampy moment and some odd pressure very low down right now, but that's something I have noticed over the last few days. It's very on and off, which again is typical for me in a pregnant luteal phase.
Soooo the thing is, will it carry on? I guess I will go to bed (after eating!) and see what my temp is in the morning. That should tell me, one way or the other, never mind a pregnancy test. I will be disappointed if it drops! But if it does, it does. I'll update asap again tomorrow. Thanks for hanging in there with this crazy woman! ;)
Monday, March 1, 2010
8DPO...
I'm still here!!! Moving into 9DPO (it's late, tsk!)!! I'm so glad my luteal phase is longer than last cycle, yay! :)
I have a lot to report for today, and it's late so I need to do it sort of bullet-point-y, otherwise I'll waffle and ramble and still be up just a few hours before I need to wake up and temp again, haha! ;)
My temperature went UP this morning!!!!! I was so excited to see it, I don't know WHY I am quite this excited, really, but I apparently am! It's my highest temp this cycle, and in a way it surprised me after yesterday's temp drop, but in all other ways it was not a surprise. I woke up just FEELING luteal-phase-ish still, overly warm and all that stuff. Subtle things that I'm pretty familiar with now. So it was 36.8 this morning, and I was so pleased because with a temp like that I certainly did not expect to see my period today. And it hasn't arrived! In fact, not any sign of it coming at all right now.
I am double excited really, because I have had bad cramps on and off (this morning I even considered taking painkillers once or twice, seriously) for 48 hours now with NO period following. Now, that has never ever happened to me before (ever) except when I have been pregnant. Ever.
I have to tell you, no matter whether my temp drops in the morning and my period does show - I know I sound like a broken record or something, but I absolutely completely feel like I am pregnant. It's not so much the queasiness that started late afternoon and hung around through the evening today, or the flatulence that's becoming rather ridiculous now (!!), typical of a pregnant luteal phase for me, or the other things that could easily be me mis-reading PMS signs. It's none of that. The convincing stuff is the stuff which, in my LONG history of charting and over-analyzing every tiny detail of my body's signs and symptoms (!), ONLY happens when conception and implantation has taken place (or started to, at least). Some things, for me, NEVER take place otherwise. And the cramping is one of them.
Today the cramps have changed over the course of the day, and I wanted to detail that here for my "records", for comparison really.
This morning right from waking I had pelvic discomfort across the whole area and through to my back, right across the small of my back. It was just "hurty/crampy" (from my FF chart notes that I jot down through the day if I get chance, so I don't forget anything later!). That kind of feeling has continued fairly continuously throughout the day. Sometimes the backache has felt so uncomfortable that I couldn't get comfy sitting on the sofa.
During the first part of the morning I started to be aware of a new feeling which went on to be pretty constant and bothersome for the rest of the morning and then on and off through the afternoon and evening. It felt like a sort of pulling/searing pain (well, "pain" is a bit strong, but cramp isn't really the right word, and it was more than discomfort) right across the whole area inside my hips and from the pit of my abdomen up to my bikini line. It was much more focused behind my pubic bone (maybe even lower, that's how it felt). At the same time, further out to just inside my hips (further up near my bikini line) I had a sensation very much like mild ligament pain (as in, the type of ligament pain I experience a bit later on during my pregnancies, just a miiiild version of it), a sort of stretching-ish feeling, but not quick flashes like real ligament pains - it was constant and very uncomfortable.
I have had sort of burny pressure sensations very low and central (once or twice today those turned into yucky hot vice-like cramps that radiated outwards to my hips low down, just for a minute each time maybe, but I was SO SURE my period had arrived both times and went running to the loo to sort it out!). The pressure feeling is strange with the pulling/stretching feeling further out! It's an odd combination to feel. I am so very familiar with this kind of feeling that I know pretty much for sure that it's because implantation is underway. Even so, I just have no idea if my luteal phase can support it, so it's a wait and see thing again, and I must not let myself get too excited about the possibility.
I have more CM than usual again today, but less than yesterday for sure. My crampy sensations are a little easier this evening but the backache is bothersome. I haven't had any time at all today from waking till now without some sort of cramping or pelvic discomfort, so something is definitely going on! I never have this before a period, even RIGHT before, not to this degree.
I'm not particularly aware of any breast discomfort today, but I still think they are bigger than they were.
I charted weirdly soft skin today!!!! :D I asked Neil to verify (he's my Quality Control Guy, haha! Very strict standards!) and he said yes, and then that he wasn't sure. I feel sure, and for him to even say yes to start with is enough for me, so I charted it! ;) That's a very strong pregnancy sign for me. I've never had that without being pregnant (as Megan noted!).
I feel too warm today. It's not warm (though a LOVELY sunny day today!) but I have had all the windows open today! So nice! :) I feel burny behind my skin, especially on my face (keep getting flushed) and in my eyes and can't seem to feel the cold at all. I have some new spots (hormonal) on my face today, just a couple. That's not usual for me at all before a period. Specifically I get a few on my neck (for some weird reason!) before a period, but never on my face. I do sometimes note spots on my face in pregnant luteal phases though, especially Nathan and Benjamin's pregnancies (and some chemical pregnancies).
Okay so if you have seen my chart today, you probably saw that I was a bit of a crazy woman and peed on a stick at only EIGHT days past ovulation, hahaha! ;) Yes, yes, I know, but they're expiring as I type this and sitting in the drawer calling my name!! With a high temp and reaching 8DPO when I wasn't sure if would, I just had to test! Of course it was negative! ;) I am sure I saw a shadowy line, but I couldn't possibly call it anything except negative. I had to really stand on my head and close one eye and spread my toes apart to see the "line", so I am very likely just seeing things, hehe! I have been back to it in various lights (!) over the day and still see the shadow, but it's just that, a shadowiness, not a line. I'm so silly! ;) I will test every day until either my temp drops or I get a positive test, I think. Just to use up the expiring tests, of course! Can't have them going to waste! ;)
That all said, now that I've jumped about here all excited, I will likely get my temp drop and period tomorrow! It's still entirely possible. If I do, I will have had an 8-day luteal phase - one day better than last cycle, but still short. I'm just so pleased it isn't sticking at 7 days or less. I confess I'm hopeful for a pregnancy that sticks, but I TRULY should not get myself so excited about the possibility! Whatever the outcome it's absolutely fine because God knows BEST about what is right for our family and when. I need to keep my mind focused on that instead of charts and test sticks and things! And go to bed now. It's so late, and I'm very tired again today.
I'll update my chart as early as I'm able to, and my blog at some point tomorrow too. Thanks for reading and being excited with me (those who are, that is! There are probably others rolling their eyes and clicking swiftly away to somewhere more sane, haha!)!
I have a lot to report for today, and it's late so I need to do it sort of bullet-point-y, otherwise I'll waffle and ramble and still be up just a few hours before I need to wake up and temp again, haha! ;)
My temperature went UP this morning!!!!! I was so excited to see it, I don't know WHY I am quite this excited, really, but I apparently am! It's my highest temp this cycle, and in a way it surprised me after yesterday's temp drop, but in all other ways it was not a surprise. I woke up just FEELING luteal-phase-ish still, overly warm and all that stuff. Subtle things that I'm pretty familiar with now. So it was 36.8 this morning, and I was so pleased because with a temp like that I certainly did not expect to see my period today. And it hasn't arrived! In fact, not any sign of it coming at all right now.
I am double excited really, because I have had bad cramps on and off (this morning I even considered taking painkillers once or twice, seriously) for 48 hours now with NO period following. Now, that has never ever happened to me before (ever) except when I have been pregnant. Ever.
I have to tell you, no matter whether my temp drops in the morning and my period does show - I know I sound like a broken record or something, but I absolutely completely feel like I am pregnant. It's not so much the queasiness that started late afternoon and hung around through the evening today, or the flatulence that's becoming rather ridiculous now (!!), typical of a pregnant luteal phase for me, or the other things that could easily be me mis-reading PMS signs. It's none of that. The convincing stuff is the stuff which, in my LONG history of charting and over-analyzing every tiny detail of my body's signs and symptoms (!), ONLY happens when conception and implantation has taken place (or started to, at least). Some things, for me, NEVER take place otherwise. And the cramping is one of them.
Today the cramps have changed over the course of the day, and I wanted to detail that here for my "records", for comparison really.
This morning right from waking I had pelvic discomfort across the whole area and through to my back, right across the small of my back. It was just "hurty/crampy" (from my FF chart notes that I jot down through the day if I get chance, so I don't forget anything later!). That kind of feeling has continued fairly continuously throughout the day. Sometimes the backache has felt so uncomfortable that I couldn't get comfy sitting on the sofa.
During the first part of the morning I started to be aware of a new feeling which went on to be pretty constant and bothersome for the rest of the morning and then on and off through the afternoon and evening. It felt like a sort of pulling/searing pain (well, "pain" is a bit strong, but cramp isn't really the right word, and it was more than discomfort) right across the whole area inside my hips and from the pit of my abdomen up to my bikini line. It was much more focused behind my pubic bone (maybe even lower, that's how it felt). At the same time, further out to just inside my hips (further up near my bikini line) I had a sensation very much like mild ligament pain (as in, the type of ligament pain I experience a bit later on during my pregnancies, just a miiiild version of it), a sort of stretching-ish feeling, but not quick flashes like real ligament pains - it was constant and very uncomfortable.
I have had sort of burny pressure sensations very low and central (once or twice today those turned into yucky hot vice-like cramps that radiated outwards to my hips low down, just for a minute each time maybe, but I was SO SURE my period had arrived both times and went running to the loo to sort it out!). The pressure feeling is strange with the pulling/stretching feeling further out! It's an odd combination to feel. I am so very familiar with this kind of feeling that I know pretty much for sure that it's because implantation is underway. Even so, I just have no idea if my luteal phase can support it, so it's a wait and see thing again, and I must not let myself get too excited about the possibility.
I have more CM than usual again today, but less than yesterday for sure. My crampy sensations are a little easier this evening but the backache is bothersome. I haven't had any time at all today from waking till now without some sort of cramping or pelvic discomfort, so something is definitely going on! I never have this before a period, even RIGHT before, not to this degree.
I'm not particularly aware of any breast discomfort today, but I still think they are bigger than they were.
I charted weirdly soft skin today!!!! :D I asked Neil to verify (he's my Quality Control Guy, haha! Very strict standards!) and he said yes, and then that he wasn't sure. I feel sure, and for him to even say yes to start with is enough for me, so I charted it! ;) That's a very strong pregnancy sign for me. I've never had that without being pregnant (as Megan noted!).
I feel too warm today. It's not warm (though a LOVELY sunny day today!) but I have had all the windows open today! So nice! :) I feel burny behind my skin, especially on my face (keep getting flushed) and in my eyes and can't seem to feel the cold at all. I have some new spots (hormonal) on my face today, just a couple. That's not usual for me at all before a period. Specifically I get a few on my neck (for some weird reason!) before a period, but never on my face. I do sometimes note spots on my face in pregnant luteal phases though, especially Nathan and Benjamin's pregnancies (and some chemical pregnancies).
Okay so if you have seen my chart today, you probably saw that I was a bit of a crazy woman and peed on a stick at only EIGHT days past ovulation, hahaha! ;) Yes, yes, I know, but they're expiring as I type this and sitting in the drawer calling my name!! With a high temp and reaching 8DPO when I wasn't sure if would, I just had to test! Of course it was negative! ;) I am sure I saw a shadowy line, but I couldn't possibly call it anything except negative. I had to really stand on my head and close one eye and spread my toes apart to see the "line", so I am very likely just seeing things, hehe! I have been back to it in various lights (!) over the day and still see the shadow, but it's just that, a shadowiness, not a line. I'm so silly! ;) I will test every day until either my temp drops or I get a positive test, I think. Just to use up the expiring tests, of course! Can't have them going to waste! ;)
That all said, now that I've jumped about here all excited, I will likely get my temp drop and period tomorrow! It's still entirely possible. If I do, I will have had an 8-day luteal phase - one day better than last cycle, but still short. I'm just so pleased it isn't sticking at 7 days or less. I confess I'm hopeful for a pregnancy that sticks, but I TRULY should not get myself so excited about the possibility! Whatever the outcome it's absolutely fine because God knows BEST about what is right for our family and when. I need to keep my mind focused on that instead of charts and test sticks and things! And go to bed now. It's so late, and I'm very tired again today.
I'll update my chart as early as I'm able to, and my blog at some point tomorrow too. Thanks for reading and being excited with me (those who are, that is! There are probably others rolling their eyes and clicking swiftly away to somewhere more sane, haha!)!
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